Lauren is donating this.

HEART ACHE, STRESS, DRAMA.
it is just so hard sometimes.  frustrating, embarrassing, humiliating.  That is all I am going to say about what has happened.

i was so thankful to hear that they have figured out a way to be able to have more people on the phone hook up.  what most people don't know is, it can be really hard to hear sometimes with the set up we currently have.  Randy and Bill are the hardest ones to hear.  But I can't complain as i am just so thankful to be able to hear the meetings.  When I first heard them announce it, my thoughts went to Carol and how she will be able to call into the toll free number from Superior.  And then I thought of Dianne and how sometimes she has to be extra careful when there are illnesses in the cong.  Then I thought of Bill and how in the winter he struggles so much, and maybe sometimes he will hook up.  And Sarah, until she gets back on her feet.  And Dave... and and and  But I thought it was so wonderful that they can do this now for those who are really struggling with their health.

Lauren is having a tough day and is just so sad.  So I am trying to keep her company.  She is learning how to do hoods today.  She has some super cute fleece.  She has been very thrifty looking for awesome deals.  With all this sewing she just keeps getting better at it.  She had a little vacation trip planned but that isn't going to work out now.  So I am hoping that she will be able to go get a break someplace or something.  It was a MAJOR pain just to get time off from work. Maybe she will still get to go someplace else.  Someplace where she can relax.  She has the most stressful job on the planet and works for the most difficult boss EVER!  Oh, and she works for me hahaha.  well it is her other job that has her often coming home in tears.  No one can even imagine what Lauren goes through.  Even if they think they know... what they have seen is a drop in the bucket to what she has to endure.  So if anyone needs a vacation, no one deserves it more than Lauren and I mean NO ONE!  It just makes my heart hurt so deeply knowing how she has to suffer.  She has it almost as bad as I did.  I don't want to think about this again.  

I got a card in the mail yesterday and another card a few days before that.  Very sweet and very thoughtful.  It was just so nice to know I have dear friends who have my back and care.  It has been tough lately.  IT isn't always easy to "hang in there".  Sometimes when more than one person is having a bad day on the same day I am having a bad day... whoa!  So on days like that, I am keeping these cards close by so that I can just reread them and glean from them the strength to "hang in there".  

EO & Lauren are going to town tomorrow.  Lauren is going to drop off a couple of hoods she made for the wig shop at the clinic.  They are a donation to the shop.  I hadn't seen this print on fleece before. Anyways, she made a couple of them and has them done now.