heeheehee

i knew i would be tired today... and sure enough, i'm tired.  yeah, you don't have to be a rocket scientist to know that was going to be the case.  Plus, my stomach is upset today.  not sure what that is about.  

last night and this morning, i have been so weepy.  i don't know if it is because my body is so maxed out, or what, but i feel like now I am starting to settle down.  There is just so much emotional stress surrounding the family right now.  I just keep praying we can endure.

So last night, I slept ok, (i took extra pain meds) and i got up for a bathroom run. well, when I got back to bed, someone (and I'm not naming any names....hahahaha) rolled over, and was laying on my pillow.  Now this isn't the first time he has done this, but this time it was a bit harder to get comfortable because I couldn't move my pillow.  He really loves my pillow, he keeps buying pillows trying to find one as nice as mine, and he just can't.  ok, anyways, it was a bit of a struggle but I survived and i let him survive too.  i could have pushed him over or ripped the pillow out from under his head, but that all just seemed to mean.  So I might not have been as comfortable going back to sleep, but if he enjoys my pillow that much, I can share with him...this time. 

land sakes, i'm tired!  I have a couple of things I want to try to do today.  EO wants me to keep working on a plan for our get-a-way trip for our 25th anniversary.  We talked about it yesterday, as his aunt asked if we were going to have a party, because she knows we are "party throwers".  I thought her jaw was about to hit the floor when we said "no".  After all that is going on with his mom, our strength is just maxed out for having a party.  Even if the kids were to throw one, there is just no way they could do it without our having to help with the work.  Well, maybe they could, but... but... but.  I know it is a big deal, the "25th", but, with everything going on, either Carol will barely be alive by that point, and how can we have a party without her, or... we will have recently lost her, and how can we put a party together while we are still grieving, it would be too much work, for us to do.  So we talked about it and knew neither of us could put together a party.  So I will keep hunting for idea for our get-a-way.  We would be gone for 2 or 3 days, I think.  But I still don't know where we will be going.  So I will have to see what I can figure out.