So pretty,,, I want to see this place someday!

I am worried.  Sharron is having some complications.  She is bleeding somewhere.  pulse rapid, blood pressure is off. They have her stable but... it is a wait and see kind of thing.  She was doing good after surgery, but not today.  They may have to go back in.  But one test showed that the bleeding isn't coming from the heart, so that is a good thing.  She isn't able to have any visitors other than Jerry & Jodi.   We are keeping her and her family & friends in my prayers.  there is just too much sickness.  Sometimes it is so overwhelming.  And then Jehovah just gets you through it.  I have no ability to cope without his help.  So I know he will be there to help Sharron and her loved ones to endure the stress.

Yesterday I spent 2 hours trying to figure out how to order my meds on-line... or by phone.  My insurance carrier changed the first of the year so everything changed.  I was going crazy trying to get it to work and called so many numbers.  I couldn't even get someone to talk to about the problem.  But then... after waiting on hold for 20 minutes, got a guy who gave me a different number than what was on my papers and prescriptions.  So I called it and waited for another 15 mins on hold and after talking to 3 more people, they made the adjustments and got the web site working for me.  Happy day!! I was running low on some of my meds.  I am just so glad that it is working now.  

It was so strange, the other day I had such an odd dream, then last night, the dream continued and came to an end solving the problem.   I have never had that before, where 2 days will pass and the dream continued.  It was so odd.  It was sort of "james bond" like, without the violence, just the spy kind of thing.  It was really complicated too.  It just amazed me to how my brain works (and doesn't work).  There is so much I have to learn and I'm sure it will take forever to do so... good thing we will have forever.

Yesterday's pain in my tummy went on the whole day.  I am so glad today isn't as bad with the GI track, but I have horrible pain in my hips and shoulder, spine, hands.... ok, my joints.  I am super stiff and bad bad pain.  If it isn't one thing it is another.  So to keep my mind off of the pain... at least a little, I am listening to some Songs for Worship this morning...well after I completed my morning worship.  Sometimes when I listen to it, I try to pick out one voice... it is really hard anyway, and I am not sure why I do it.  I just do.  Or I will pick out one instrument and just try to focus on that one throughout the song.  That is really hard too.  But I do like to analyze  music.

When my low back and hips hurt so badly, I can't help but think of the horrible pain my mom goes through.  I know her spinal diseases are far worse than the inflammation I have to deal with.  She doesn't get any relief (not much anyways).  She has to be on some megga drugs.  It isn't just the bones crushing in on themselves in her spine, but they twist as well and they pinch off nerves that effect the rest of her body. It isn't just in her low back but in her upper back as well.  I can't even imagine the kind of pain Carol is going through.  It is so heartbreaking. 

Steph & Lauren are working today at mom's.  Mom needed Steph to makes cheese cakes...i have no idea what they are for, most likely for Harris' since they have lunch with her on Sundays.  Oh and EO is working for her today too, as she is having him do some shopping for her.  Colton is sleeping, so the house is super quiet right now.  I think I will go lay down and vegg.  Well, after I get some cards written.  I have gotten behind and have a number of them to write.