So, What's next?
 
 So it looks like it was just be 3 of us going this weekend.  And we won't be back until Sunday.  We were going to come home Saturday night, but EO & Steph are so concerned about me going that they decided to get a room for Saturday night.  I will go check in around 3 so I can lay down and rest.  EO tried to talk me out of going and I told him I knew I couldn't handle it, I said, however, you and Steph have no mastered your communication skills with each other, and this is too big a deal for there not to be a mediator.  He hung his head and said I was right.  They have really been working on it, but they aren't there yet, and she has to be able to find a horse she can connect with.  Plus I am just going to love seeing all those horses, walking through the barn, smelling their sweet scent.  It just eases my pain thinking about it.  My horses saved my life.  When I couldn't handle the stress, I would go out and snuggle my babies, and it soothed my pain.  I am so so so thankful my mom got them for me after dad died.  EO says I smile the biggest he has ever seen when he sees me riding.  Granted I don't think I could ride now, but the feeling is still the same.  I think it will remind me a lot of Kelly, as she was my riding buddy.  But I hope to make new memories with my family.  Colton says he might even go riding from time to time.  Lauren too would like to get a horse someday, but not yet.

So they are going to go up and open up the Peter Rich Center this afternoon, around 2pm.  Then set up some tables and wait for Kristi to get there.  Then as soon as she gets there, they will come home and we will leave.  I will have to pack a bag too.

Yesterday I was so swollen under my arm, I couldn't hardly stand the pain. I just had to prop pillows under my arm most of the day.  Today I have such a headache.  

Lauren and Colton will take care of the cats and the chickens while we are gone.  No eggs from the chickens yet, but I'm sure it won't be too long.  Lauren was going to go with us, but she didn't think her back could handle the trip.  I told her she should consider getting a stationary bike, so she can tone her legs, but it would also get her moving and build up her strength.  She is looking at a couple different ones that have backs on them, as she needs that too.

I am going to try to post pics of some of the horses we like, and maybe I will update my status while we are down there.  I know there is a Kingdom Hall close by, as we visited it years ago when we had been down there.  That reminds me, I should study my lesson today, I think I will do that now. 

UPDATE:
I studied my WT.... wow, so awesome!  We just have to keep confident, Jehovah is here for us.  Over and over I read, "Whatever happens", so yeah, we don't know the details of what each one of us will face, but it doesn't matter.  Jehovah has helped his people in the past no matter what they had to deal with.  He helps us today, and he will continue to help us tomorrow.  I like how it brought out to reflect on how Jehovah helped us through issues we have had.  I think of all the times EO needed a job, I would pray specifically, "in order to pay our bills, the money has to be in the account by (such in such) day, and most jobs pay on the 15th or 30th, so he has to be working by (such in such) day."  Without fail, he would be called to work on that last day.  I often prayed, that Jehovah didn't have to wait until the last day, that I wouldn't mind.  but I understood that it allowed us to demonstrate our faith right until the last day.

Then there were things like the right doctor being there to help each one of us, when it was really needed.  Sometimes we didn't even get a chance to pray. Well, times like all I could utter was "help Jehovah".  not even knowing what kind of help I needed, but something would click and I would get through.  Like when Steph had her swimming accident.  I didn't know it was Steph, and I didn't know what help I needed, I just uttered "Help Jehovah".  and when I saw it was Steph, I was calm and talking to her.  A couple weeks later, a woman approached me and said she was there and saw me and how calm and in control I was.  I was able to start a Bible study with her.  It didn't work out for her because of the pressure she got from her family, but at least it gave a Witness.  I figured if my being calm (because of Jehovah's strength) effected her, it may have effected others, because there were ALOT of people there.

Another time I remember my cousin's husband was stung by bees and he was unconscious when we got there.  She was having a very hard time dealing with it, and she was VERY pregnant too.  I said "help Jehovah" and then something clicked and I was able to do a bunch of stuff, like calling the brothers in Duluth to meet them at the hospital, keeping the kids calm and out of the way of the helicopter and ambulance.  Calming and restraining my cousin, when the paramedics had to stop his heart so they could work on him (I don't know why they had to do that)  but I do remember she broke down when they did that, and I told her, they wouldn't do it if they didn't have to and if they couldn't get him going again.  Then I remember I had to make a decision as to whether or not it would be safe for her to go with her disfellowshipped and sometimes violent bro in law... I watched him for several minutes and prayed.  I told her, since there was no one else she could ride with, and he is genuinely worried for his brother and he offered to help her, it would be ok. Jehovah understands situations like this.  And if she got scared, to just pray pray pray, Jehovah would look after her.  I remember begging Jehovah for help, my hands were shaking and I wanted so much to be able to leave, and for Him to send someone else to deal with this, and NO ONE came.  I prayed that He couldn't possibly think I could handle this.  But I guess He was trying to show me, that He has the power to even make ME capable enough to deal with this.  I actually had a mild case of post traumatic stress after this.  

I can think of many more times Jehovah got us through trails.  I have a feeling, that we will be recounting these when things get worse.  Which is most likely why the WT lesson was bringing that out now.