Surprise!  I'm tired.  Ok, that was no surprise being I went to town the last two days in a row.  Plus yesterday was longer, as we left at 10am, and got home at 8:30pm.... actually we got back into town about 6, and we stopped and visited with Bill for awhile and got him updated on how things went. 

but my body today is super stressed... as this morning I kept crying.  Not a boohoo, as nothing was on my mind, I just had tears flowing cause I was pushing myself this morning and my body didn't like it.  So I sat down and focused on my morning worship and my body cooperated nicely.  yeah, I think sometimes my body thinks my mind is nuts for some of the stuff i try to do physically.  

Why did I go up two days in a row... because otherwise i would have been home all day by myself and EO would have worried about me and not been able to spend as much time with his mom as he wants.  He says it is hard sometimes, because he wants to spend more time with her, but his dad gets tired after 2-3 hours of being up there and wants to go home.  So EO has to leave even though he isn't ready.  So it is nice when he can stay with her longer.  He needs his time with her.  So it was just easier for him to have me with him so he could be there longer.   If only I could cook... it is hard because the kids are gone so much of the time, and it is just me here, those are the times EO worries.  They try to have food in the fridge for me, but then there are times where, everyone is just so busy, they don't have time to cook.  oh well, Jehovah always makes sure we are all taken care of.  

I try to assure EO of that too... that Jehovah always has our back.  He just worries so much.  And now with all that is going on with his mom and the family leaning on him for support, we are all trying to support him as much as we can so he doesn't have to worry about the house stuff and us so much.  

The kids got home about midnight.  they had a blast at the grad party.  so that was good to hear.

This this morning, Lauren was going out the door and she got a cramp and fell down the stairs.  skun her knee and bent her big toenail backwards about 1/3 of the way down.  I bandaged her up and she went to the meeting anyways.  Sweet girl!  But I know she is going to have a lot of pain in the next few days.

The outpouring of volunteers to help stay with Carol... is over whelming.  Our hearts are so deeply touched and humbled.  Some have said they can't stay but they would like to make a meal... I was going to talk to EO about it today, and see if maybe a pot of chili or soup or something like that could be dropped off for Bill.  He doesn't eat much as the stress is just too hard on him to eat much.  But if he had a pot of soup, (2 or 3 bowls) it would last him a couple days.  What he has been doing is having a piece of toast or an egg for breakfast, then go up to Duluth and have a half a sandwich up there.  then have the other half of it for dinner.  (very little)  sometimes he won't eat that much.  sometimes he will only have one meal for the day.  So I will talk to EO about it.  Maybe we can even make up a small hot dish or something like that for him. 

So since they drained the cancer fluid again on Friday from both her abdomen and the lung sac, yesterday she was breathing better.  I don't remember if I posted that she suffered with coughing fits every 20 to 30 mins all night long while Steph stayed with her.  So she was really tired yesterday.  But she ate food which was AWESOME!  She also had a nice group of visitors throughout the day.  She didn't get a lot of sleep, just little catnaps.  very little.  but, Stacy said, she ended up going to sleep at 6 and slept sound until 9pm.  and then she wasn't up real long before going back to sleep again.  So cute.  She gets better care at the hospital than the nursing home because they can't make changes to her needs like they can at the hospital.  But they told us they will be more specific their the orders they give for her to the nursing home, and that we can pretty much expect that she is going to go back a forth a number of times.  Depressing but understandable.  It is sad that instead of getting stronger she continues to only get weaker.  And her color still isn't good yet.  But maybe, now that her dental issues are taken care of and the kinks are worked out finding the right balance of pain meds and nausea meds and all the other meds, and the boost they are giving her with the iron and protein will help her to get her strength back quicker so she will then be able to heal faster, then then then she will be strong enough to start the Chemo.  

We had missed the doc, but EO was able to talk to her on the phone and he was able to express his concerns and find out a few things.  He was satisfied with the plan.  The insurance wants her back in the Villa by Monday.  However, I know there are all sorts of things they can come up with to make it so they can keep people longer.  And that is just what the doc said.  She didn't figure she would be sending her back that soon and that she wouldn't send her back until she was ready.  So that was comforting.

***********************UPDATE....  Carol is in terrible pain, they are about to take some xrays and the family is running up there now.   


*********UPDATE**********
False alarm... the xrays or scan they did didn't show up anything, they think that her pain level just increased.  They said once they doped her up she slept... but I am still bothered... why did it increase and yeah, dope anyone up, they will sleep, so I hope it was nothing more and they weren't thinking nothing is wrong just because they doped her up?  IDK... i'm tired and can't seem to be comforted by this.  If nothing more happens, then I will stop worrying.