what a pic!

I was so hard to get up this morning.  I didn't want to get out of bed for anything.  In fact, EO got up before I did, and that seldom happens.  I didn't even want to pray about getting up, how terrible is that.  I know Jehovah understood how sick I have been today, but I still felt bad.  So I started on my spiritual routine and I thought.. it's Saturday, so I have to do my WT... I don't wanna do it today... so I went and took a shower and I started feeling bad about not wanting to do anything today, I just kept looking at the bed and wanting to climb back in.  But I felt like such a looser for not trying harder and then even more guilt for not praying for a better attitude.  I thought I just have to do it even though it is hard for me today.  What is the WT about?  Feelings of guilt.  Oh how I fall short every day, but some days are way more shorter than others.  It is a constant issue for me.  I always beat myself up over the stupid things I do.  I had to write that quote in my mag that I have posted on my home page, about when Satan tries to remind you of your past, remind him of his future.  I really do think about that all the time, and it really does help me to stop dwelling on what I can't change but focus on making smarter choices.  I also try to remind myself, it isn't about being perfect it is about the struggle to keep on trying to be pleasing to Jehovah.  He knows we can't be perfect yet and he doesn't expect us to always get it right, but he does expect us to keep trying and keep growing.

Lauren and EO went in service.  Lauren wasn't feeling well at all, but she powered through.  She was so encouraged by a call she went with Kim to, that she called me to tell me about it.  She said it was just so awesome to see the woman light up when she was understanding Bible truths.  I'm guessing that was a gift from Jehovah for her not staying in bed but going out despite not feeling well.  

Steph is at work, as she works every Saturday and Colton is in bed as he worked last night, plus he is still sick. Sure hope he gets better before he leaves for Florida.