Jehovah really is the God of all comfort!

Sometime today, the doc will be there to tell the family what we all want to know...what kind of cancer it is and what the plan is to get rid of it.  I wanted to be up there with the family, but... in all the drama, we forgot the appraiser is going to be here this morning sometime, for our refinancing.  So, I had to stay home.  

In all the confusion, EO has been trying to have meals here for me.  It just stinks that I can't be trusted to cook for myself anymore. Cooking is a task that if it requires more than two steps, (heat and eat), I more than mess it up  {{{BOOM}}}.  Plus the kids are gone most of the time as well.  I hate that he has to worry about it and I wish I could take care of it myself.  The other day he was able to make a few extra burgers, so I have been eating those.  Maybe one day he can cook up some brats or something, if he has time.  that is the biggest thing.  He drives his dad up to the hospital everyday, and is gone for lunch and dinner time.

Colton is gone all day every day his classes for RN start today.  Lauren has been going a lot of the time with EO up town.  The days she doesn't go, she works all day with my mom.   Steph is gone all day everyday too.  So meal time kind of scares and overwhelms me.  It is a daily issue here, because my appetite is so messed up, nothing ever sounds good.  But even if it doesn't sound good, I still eat it whatever he makes.  It is seldom that I can think of what I would like to eat.

I am so tried this morning.  We got up early, because EO and his dad wanted to get up to the hospital as soon as they could in case the doc came in the morning.  Lauren helped me clean things up a little bit.  I am so tried, I just can't think.
Anyways... I just need 10 more hours to have my 30 in.  I have been trying to keep up with my bible reading... it is kind of hard to concentrate when my mind is so distracted with what is happening in the family.  But... I am working on loosing myself in the Bible reading.  I am in Ezekiel, and I just find so much comfort in the verses.  I know that Jehovah is declaring judgement upon the wicked, but when he says, "and you will have to know that I am Jehovah"... just makes me so excited that the nations can no longer deny Him.  Once and for all, He will be "in there face" and they will have to acknowledge Jehovah and the truth.  It just excites me and that I find comforting.  All the lies, all the denying, all the people who have ignored Him for thousands of years, they will have to admit they were stupid.  It excites me, that Jehovah will finally be able to vindicate his sovereignty.  It is not just faith strengthening, but it has really helped me to cope with the deep heart ache of what we are all going through right now.

When I hear from EO about what the doctor says, I will add it to this post.


*****UPDATE*****

What we know so far is the cancer is either ovarian or another kind (that EO couldn't remember or pronounce).  They have to wait a few days until all the lab comes back on it.

The mass is in the fat of abdominal lining.  It is very slow growing and treatable.  (AWESOME NEWS)

They will either do Chemo to shrink it and then surgery or they will do surgery then chemo.... The doc wants a gynecologist involved, so she is going to discuss it with the gynecologist and then later today they will go talk to her and bring her the plan.  

They are not going to put this off, but she will begin treatment this week.

The family is breathing easier, because we have some answers.  They do have more questions for the doc, and when the two docs come back, they will go through them.  

AND...Carol will be able to come home today!  WootWoot!!!