EO had to head out to work at the apts early this morning.  He will be gone most of the day.  Plus he will have to be there tomorrow as well.  Then tomorrow night Colton can start moving in.  He has furniture from a few places he has to go pick up.  I have no idea if he will be doing that tomorrow or Saturday.  So we will be down to one kid at home... which she spends most of her time up town so it will be really quiet around her. 

My tummy is giving me a lot of trouble today, well it started yesterday.  But today it is already has me super touchy.  It started acting up just before I started running a fever last night.  It was a little bit higher fever than normal, but at least it was short term.

My fingers have been acting up A LOT the past few days as well.  They had kind of mellowed out for awhile, but now they are screaming at me again.  All this typing isn't helping.  But I don't care. I feel like babbling today.

My hip is down to just bugging me a little vs. yesterday's screaming at me.  So I am happy about that.  But my whole body is really achy due to the rain we are getting.  I didn't used to be so sensitive to the weather (not counting my sinuses) but now I really feel a difference according to the weather conditions.  That is one nice thing about having a wood stove.  That dry heat is so soothing.  

I may not be a fan of the rain, but at least it is melting  all our snow.  there is next to no snow left on the kitchen side of the house. The field side still has a fair amount of snow though.  This has been one of the craziest winters I can remember.  I do remember when i was a little kid, we had a snowstorm that buried our car.  And the snow storm we got the night before my dad's memorial was really wild.  But everyone managed to get plowed out at to the service.  We had a couple of huge storms, where we had to throw the C.O. a shovel (who stayed in their trailer...in our yard) during the storm.  I am amazed their camper didn't cave in.  The C.O. at the time was Dick & Jackie Mulrath. 

So I'm feeling kind of nostalgic today.  I'm guessing with the kids all leaving, I will feel more like that from time to time. Just nothing like snuggling those babies.  They are all so happy, and that just makes me feel so content. I know they will have challenges and they will have to learn how to keep their own spiritual routine without the support of others.  Well, actually, both the girls have already have a plan to keep their routines going with their room mates.  So Colton is more on his own, but i am sure he will get together with some of the friends for WT or something like that, as the did that before. 

As for our anniversary trip... with all that is going on, I don't think we will have time to take a trip.  It amazes me... since before I was married, I had an idea of what I wanted to do for our 25th wedding anniversary.  One of the things that excited me, was that our kids would be grown up and could be a part of it. I knew I really wanted to have a dance at our party and then go on a little vacation.  I can't count how many times I had thought about it.  How ironic... we don't have time and we really don't have energy to not only plan a party, but also we don't have time to take a trip either.  It isn't the "attending" part, it is all the cooking, cleaning, hauling, organizing, we would have to have it someplace, so there is the "setting up" and more hauling and then after the party all the cleaning and hauling and and and.  That is what we have no strength for.  

 My hope is maybe we can at least go out to lunch or something.  It really kind of saddens me.  All this time, for more than 25 years, looking forward to this and... we just can't make it happen.  we will be doing good if we can at least grab a chili dog from DQ.  I haven't even had time to think about doing anything.  And if I haven't, then EO really hasn't.  I haven't even been able to go get EO a card.  Our other tradition,  to get each other a card... like in February and display it up on the cupboard, just to tease either other, but we can't open them until our anniversary.  EO hasn't been able to get one either and it is closing in on May.  Between stuff with my mom and his parents and the kids moving and my health troubles and EO's stress load...  I'm not blaming any of them, it is just everything at once.  It is just too much.  Plus the kids have/had to save their pennies for their deposit and rent, so none of them have 2 cents to spare.  

I maybe might maybe be able to plan and organize.. maybe...well... maybe not, but EO doesn't have the energy, he is just being pulled in too many directions.  I don't think I could plan anything either.  My thoughts are so filled with so much other stuff going on.  I'm trying to help the kids with stuff and my mom with stuff, and not weighing EO down so he can tend to his dad and mom.  And now with Starks moving... we were asked if we were planning on doing a party for them... It didn't even occur to me yet, because, i don't have time to think that far ahead. There are so many days I am just trying to hang on for dear life and not let my illness wreck me.  I know all this stress right now, even though it isn't all bad stress, but according to my doctors, stress is stress.  It doesn't matter if it is mental, emotional or physical... good or bad, it all is stress.  So when I found out the sisters wanted to do something, EO and I were so thankful.  We couldn't juggle one more thing.  If we can't do our own anniversary, i don't know how we could do their party too.  We won't even be doing a party for Steph.  I think she is going to have an "open house" or maybe she is going to combine one with her roommate. Not sure.  I would love to do one for her, but again... just too swamped.  I still feel bad we didn't do anything for Colton when he moved... but when he did move, he was still sort of here and then not and then here, and now this is where he is living.

I don't know why i am babbling so much about this.. i hadn't had any time to even think about it.  but since it was just B&C's anniversary last Sunday, it got me thinking about our anniversary.   maybe we will be able to do something on our 50th.

the other thing is, how to you have a party without Carol.  even planning a party, knowing she couldn't be there... 

I just can't help but think... "they were busy with eat and drinking, men marring and women being given in marriage and they took no note until the flood came and swept them all away".  With all that is loading EO & I down... our morning worship, sure helps us to keep in mind the times we are living in.  How trivial an anniversary party is in the grand scheme of things.  The last thing I want to do is to become distracted by trivial things.