I just had to post this, it is so precious. This mama feeding her baby right in our yard.  I have been able to see so much more now that I am spending my time in the living room.  Like that skunk that spent the whole day digging for grubs in the rain.  At least it didn't smell.  It was really fun to watch.  It just amazes me how Jehovah created so many delightful things.

So I do believe that all this stress has taken a tole once again on me.  The past several days I have been in constant prayer, basically I just have a running dialog going all day with Jehovah.  But now I'm sicker than ever.  I woke up with horrible pain and knots all over my body.  The past two days I have been living in the bathroom. This morning as well, my neck is so swollen it hurts to turn my head.  But there is at least a light at the end of the tunnel for what has been going on.  So now I should be able to focus on the kids and EO again.  They all have patiently had to stand by and watch as I am devoting all my strength to someone else.  But what is good is, they are willing to sacrifice the attention I would be giving them to someone else.  In fact they are all helping in their own way so that I can be focused else where.  But now, now I can turn my attention back to the family.  OK, maybe not to much today as I will be in bed the rest of the day... well, I will try to be in my chair, but at least I can be there for them and not distracted.  I have to thank Jehovah so so so so much for helping me through these issues that have been going on.  I couldn't do it without him.
 
Yesterday I had a tiny spurt of energy so I cleaned and reorganized one cupboard.  It didn't seem like much, but it really was a huge task.  I found we had 5 containers of salt... Well 2 were partial, so I dumped the one with the least into another one.  I also found a bowl with sugar in it... i have no idea where it came from, so I dumped that into the sugar container.  I threw away a few old things and ended up making enough room that I was able to put all the bottle of soda flavors for the soda stream into the cupboard. There is still some clutter but at least it has been simplified and cleaned.  I was able to do this because no body was home all day.  Well some came in and out but mostly I had the place to myself.  it has been a long time since I was home alone for that long.  I kind of miss it.  Well on days that I feel decent anyways.  i don't like being alone when I am as sick as i am today.  Speaking of, I really need to go to bed now.
      
One last thing, it was pretty hot and very humid yesterday, well I had the A/C going and everything closed up and  every time someone walked in the house, they all said "WOW,,, it feels so good in here".  I can't begin to express how good it was to hear that.  It really affected me and that surprises me.  At least they were happy to be home. 





So one problem has passed, and I thought I would be able to calm down and catch my breath.... nope!  All day I have been freaking out about the kid's problems.  As if I could even do anything about it.  I am guessing I won't be feeling physically better any time soon.  AUGHAUGHAUGHHHHHHHHHHH  I could sure use a break from all of this stress or I am just going to have to go check into a hospital.  More prayer... grated i have been praying all day, but now i think i must be selfish, and not ask for help with the kids but ask for some relief for me.