EO was going to go to the meeting, but... Carol's sister Jackie stayed with Carol last night.  And Lauren again went there at 6am this morning until EO got there at 10:30 am... well she stayed with him for a bit and then went back to her apt to rest.  We didn't want anyone to miss meeting, but Carol needs someone in the room with her at all times, and the nursing home staff can't really do that.  But with our staying, they are providing food and beverages for those who are there helping Carol. 

We are all just so so stressed... in fact... the word "stressed" doesn't feel like it accurately describes just how much stress we are under.  everyone has stress.  everyone feels at times they are "stressed out".  but this... this is more than we have ever had before.  i don't think anyone has a clue just how bad it really is.  It isn't just Deenie and Bill... and not just Leon, and not just me, but it is Lauren, Colton, Steph too. Leon couldn't do what he has been doing without me and the kids chipping in and doing things for him.  We are trying to help him, but at the same time, we are all grieving as well.  Our load, and helping EO with his load, doesn't compare to the load EO has to carry, but.... We have no doubt that Jehovah has helped us right along... we would have broke under the pressure months ago.