Someone is hurting, and I wish I could tell them, you can't run from your pain or problems.  Once a person starts running, it is even harder for them to find contentment.  I know of people who can never sit still, who are always moving from one job to another from one apartment to another, from one state to another.  All the planning and work of moving keeps them so busy they don't have time to think about their pain.  And the excitement of a new home, new job, new town gives them a "high" so that they are happy.  But to keep that "high" they have to keep moving, but what they are really doing is they are running away from facing the pain of their past.  Moving is their drug of choice, because it isn't unscriptural.   It doesn't work!!!!! 

Someone told me once they wanted to move away because they couldn't stand anyone, they had been hurt deeply by some people and they just didn't want to deal with them anymore.  I told them, if you can't learn to make peace and get along with people here, you are not going to be able to do it anywhere.  Because no matter where you go, there are going to be people with different quirks, ideas, personalities.  They are not all going to suit you.  Only LOVE will help you live with such different people.  First learn to love the people here, then no matter where you go, you will love everyone and be really happy.  They took the advise.

But how do you get that point across?  If someone refuses to deal with the pain, there is just nothing you can do.

There have been times when I have been so hurt by someone, and times when I felt like such an outsiders, and times my own mistakes have embarrassed me so much, I've wanted to move away.  But responsibilities won't allow me to.  So I have to face the pain. 

Pain doesn't really go away, we learn how to live with it, until we learn how to let go.  That is why, "triggers" or sensitive spots will bring a flood of memories back, and bring pain with it.  But even harder is letting it go.

For me, there are some things I'm still trying to let go.  In some situations, I wanted to let go, when I have been deeply hurt and wronged by someone, I was angry with them.  But I got tired of being angry all the time.  It took too much of my time and energy that I needed to spend on more important things.  It disrupted my life too much.  I thought about what "pains" my wrongdoers had to deal with and tried to understand why they did what they did.  Not that it was ok for them to do it, but to just realize the wrongdoers "pains" of their pasts molded them to do what they did.  The biggest thing, was I had to NOT say "they should have known better".  Because... how many mistakes I have made and I knew better. 

It also troubled me when I would ask Jehovah for forgiveness, but I hadn't forgiven others.  I'm not even over all my "pains", I haven't let go of them all yet, what do I do Jehovah?

I have one "pain", I worry about.  I love a person so so much, who hurts me so deeply.  I forgive them and then it starts all over again.  So often I wish I could move away, but responsibilities won't let me. 

Whatever has caused your hurt, I'm so sorry.  Please know I care about you.