It is just so sad to loose this beautiful sister.
 
 I  was on my way to a doc apt, and I got the call that we lost Sandy.  Then, as EO and I are wrapping out heads around it, I called the kids to tell them.  Then I called my mom (she already knew), but I learned my uncle (mom's brother) had a stroke and is in the hospital with no news how bad off he was.  So I went to my apt crying and trying to put this out of my head... then we headed to the hospital.  We picked up some flowers and went up to see him.  Thankfully it wasn't a massive stroke and he should recover mostly.
 
 Things have taken a turn for the worse, Colton and Autumn broke up.  We feel it is far better to break up sooner when there are issues that don't make you compatible then to lead a person on.  We are pretty sad about it.  

I am seriously not feeling well today.  Although the doc apt did help.  But... it is too much stress for one day.  Way too much stress.  All I want to do is eat and I don't care about my diet.  Well I do, so I am skipping the sweets... but still I am chowing down and I don't care.  I will work it off tomorrow when I feel better and can cope.  All of this being on the edge of the anniversary of loosing Kelly, which i am still pretty raw from.  When we watched the home videos I saw Kelly and had to look away, I still can't deal with that. I don't think I will ever be able to.  It is just a good thing the new system is close.