I didn't sleep very well.  This whole time I've had influenza, my chest has been achy.  Well yesterday was the first day it wasn't, but now today it is a little again.  I did cough a lot during the night so maybe that had something to do with it.  I really took a step backwards.  Plus this whole time my digestive track has not been good at all.  Then it seemed to be improving, until last night it became really bad again.  So I went backwards for sure!  Oh well, that often happens when recouping from a bad bug.

The family was in such a good mood last night.  EO was silly, Colton was spiritually buzzed, Lauren was beaming.  It was fun to watch them.  It was awesome to hear about our new MS.  The meeting just seemed so electric last night.

Wow, my thinking is super slow today, must be from not sleeping very well.  Perhaps along with the setback in my health too?  When I was writing my letter for the day, my hand and arm hurt so much at one point it nearly took my breath away.

Mom had her review with IRIS, and it looks like she is going to get a lot more help (I hope).  She is so close to not being able to get from her bed to her chair by herself anymore.  I am still trying to do research on it.  Lauren put the bed rails up on her bed (Monday) so she shouldn't fall out of bed anymore.  Maybe it will be enough for her to hold on to and maybe she won't fall so much?  IDK, I just found out yesterday that she fell a third time, but there were two ladies outside who saw her fall and they ran in and helped her.  I am praying that they can give her a whole truck load of hours, so someone can be there with her a whole lot more.  I keep repeating to myself... "do not be anxious...for tomorrow will have it's own anxieties".  I just keep thinking.... I need to stop worrying about 6 months from now, and just get through today.  That we will cross that bridge when we come to it.  At the same time, I keep thinking, .... every program and purchase takes so much time to get approved.  you can't just go by what you need when you need it or start a program when you need it, you have to get doctor orders and Medicare approval, evaluations and more approvals, that if you don't attack the problem now, you will have nothing when you need it.  So on the one hand, we are trying to figure out what will work best and then request that item, but on the other hand, I think .... don't be anxious, just deal with what I have to deal with for today.  Yeah, Jehovah wins....  don't be anxious... I need to quit worrying about that other stuff, because Jehovah knows what we need before we need it and he has provided amazing feats so many times before, it is nothing for him to make sure mom gets the help she needs.  I've also been worried about Convention... who will stay with her when we go?  I have no idea yet, but perhaps it will be like last year, we will have all her meals ready, and a couple people who will stop in and check on her.  Oh, and who knows, she could be in a nursing home by then.  So focus on today and stop letting tomorrow make me crazy.