EO & the girls have left.  Steph is having car issues, and when she took it in, they said that she has a defective part on her car that Ford needs to replace.  So she is taking her car in, and EO & Lauren are going to meet her at the dealership to pick her up and they are going to go visit Carol afterwards.

EO says Carol is seldom awake these days.  Sometimes she can stay awake for about 15 mins before she falls back to sleep.  At least she can sleep through all her pain and suffering.  I hurt so deeply for her, for the whole family. 

I think my feeling of helplessness for what the family is going through right now with Carol, is just bringing back my feelings of helplessness in my childhood.  This new stage we are going through in having to make the mental adjustment that the fight is over, is making me relive going through this with my dad.  Once I get this all sorted out in my mind, I will be able to put my feelings to rest and I will be able to focus on the here and now.

I received some messages and calls from some friends yesterday & today.  They were a bit overwhelmed at seeing the posts.  And they wanted to know how Bill & EO & I & the kids were doing with the recent news.  I thought it was really sweet of them to contact us personally.  It really lets you know who your friends are.  We really hadn't told anyone.  In fact, EO was out hunting when I got the call.  I told the kids but asked them not to say anything until I talked to dad.  The last thing I wanted was for someone else to say something to EO before he heard it from the family.  When I saw it posted on FB, I went into a panic, because EO hadn't gotten home yet.  So I had to make a phone call real quick and tell him over the phone...which is a horrible way for him to hear about his mom, but i couldn't risk someone else calling him and he hear the news from someone else.

EO went over to his dad's last night and was there pretty late.  It was a rough night.