EO had gone over to his dad's after the meeting, and didn't get home until 11:30, so I didn't listen to the meeting last night, however, I got up a little early this morning and listened to it.  I knew with the new tract campaign that it is was likely that the 30 hours would be available again, but I don't really work on a schedule until after the announcement and after I prayerfully consider aux pioneering.  Well, I did that this morning and decided to Aux in August as well.  So I will be working out my schedule in my calendar later on today.  

Besides listening to the meeting, I was able to accomplish more of my ministry.  I do have to confess, I am not sure if my return visits are going anywhere... however, they are overly distracted at the moment.  One is dealing with her mom who just had surgery last week and the other has her son's grad party on Saturday and she is still swamped helping her husband recover from a stroke.  So this past month, they both haven't focused that much on the truth, but I do understand.  Look at all we just went through ...and still are going through, it really took over our lives.

But now I am helping EO to get zealous about his ministry again.  So I really encouraged him to go out today.  I told him, he would feel so much better if he started focusing on it before going to the convention,  so that when we get the encouragement to focus, he will have made the first step and then the second step will be easier for him. And really he just doesn't need to be OVERLY hard on himself right now.  He knows he needs to get back at it, but he needs encouragement, not a beating.  He said it was a good idea and he knows he would feel better too.  

So EO told me I really need to bring my chair with.  He said, he knows Saturday will be such a long day for me, and I am going to need it.  He is so right.  It is going to take me a few days to recover.  Which means, I should most likely work on packing now.  Humm

I think i mentioned it before, but with having to haul my wheel chair, is it going to greatly subtract packing space.  I asked the girls to be as frugal as possible with packing.  We started joking about just wearing all our clothes then we won't have to pack anything or to just go naked, but nobody wants to see that haha.  Colton was going to take the girls down, however, McDonalds are having car issues and so they will be riding with him.  Plus, he is staying with them too so it makes sense. 

so, the other day, EO was just in agony, his leg and shoulder were causing him so much pain, that he couldn't even lift his arm.  Well, at one point, he had broke down and wept and right after, his pain was gone...mostly gone.  He asked if that was what I was talking about, when I said during my cycle, if I put off weeping, I just get sicker, so if I allow myself to weep, then i feel better.  I told him, what he was going through was pretty much it.  Then he said, that it is hard to just cry on command.  I told him, that is why i have a few sad movies that I always cry when I watch.  He thought that was depressing, but then I said, well, sometimes I just can't cry and I need something to trigger it during my cycle.  He said, he now has such a different understanding of why we need to cry sometimes. 

I just wish the pain in my hips and back would go away when I cry.  oh do i wish that was the case. Cause man, today they are killing me.  Plus... well, i had ran a fever yesterday afternoon/evening.  then my belly started to hurt.  by morning... whoa mama!!  I was into my pain meds so fast!!!  no waiting to take my scheduled meds... went right to the big stuff.  So now, my belly is touchy and achy but it isn't screaming fits at me.  it was so bad, i didn't even realize how bad my hips are today.  

Plus, i'm not sure why, but I am so stinkin' tired today.  Yet I have so much I need to do.  I really need to get back to work.