the start of healing
June 15, 2014
All week, EO has been in a "fog". He has struggled so much and I've tried to give him space when he needs it, and be there to encourage him when he is ready for it. Going in service on Wednesday really gave him a shot of encouragement. But now, he is ready to start healing. We both are.
All week, I knew the day after the Memorial I would break down, and sure enough... I was writing down names of people who didn't get to sign the guest book, and I had a chance to visit with one of my cousins. He said, that he had been talking to someone about how he is related to the Nelsons. He said, he didn't know Bill & Carol real well, but the fact he felt they were family, just grabbed my heart, and that was it. The next thing I know, Latae is by my side trying to comfort me. She is always the first to show up. She is the sweetest baby. Milly too will come to me when I cry, but not like Latae. Milly knows something is wrong, but Latae really tries to comfort us.
Well anyway. I babble in order to pull myself out of my grief. Actually, I had other family there as well. Gram, my auntie BRae, Jeff, James & Emma. (Brenda was going to come but came down with a bad cold). I sure hope she is feeling better in time for the Convention. Same thing with Shannon, she had pneumonia... how awful, right before convention. I pray for a speedy recovery so everyone can get the most out of the convention. Rachel says her girls both have pneumonia as well. What a terrible year on the health. All the cold and damp weather, is just awful on everyone's health.
Again I babble to cope. One thing that was just wonderful, is I got to know a few people better. And the friends were so comforting.
the brothers and sisters who handled the food, cleaning, set up and clean up... wow, they never stopped working. we were in awe of their efforts. They did an amazing job!!!! Bill told them all to take food home, and I understand that they did, but when they brought us left over food as well, we were so shocked at how much they brought. Well the cookies can go in the freezer along with some of the buns and meat. The fruit we will try to eat up, and i don't know if you can freeze pasta salad. i dont' think so because of the fresh veggies in it. So, EO is going to be eating pasta salad every day for awhile. Maybe he will take a trip to town and bring some to my mom.
There were a number of worldly family who were very touched by the talk that was given and how many people there were. We had expected there would be more that the number that was there, but there were a lot of people sick and a number of people who just couldn't make it. But then there were a number of people there who we didn't expect to see there and that was really heart touching to see them.
I have been to a handful of funerals given by worldly people and just be sickened by the lack of spiritual encouragement. In fact, they say stuff like "we don't know why they had to die" and "we don't know what God's purpose is" or "we don't know where they are". how does anyone move forward when they loose a loved one when they hear that? Jimmy did a beautiful job on the talk, and used many scriptures to share, what happens to us when we die, why we die and what Jehovah's purpose is for us. Oh and how Jehovah made it possible for us to have the resurrection hope on earth. So for the family who didn't know why we/Carol believes what we do, they were shown right from the Bible, what their church has failed to do always. And a number of them had more questions, and said, they just had no idea that the Bible said all that. The other thing i TOTALLY loved was that Jimmy quoted from more than "our Bible" but other Bible versions as well. Showing we don't "make up our own stuff" but how our Bible is in harmony with Bibles they may use. I loved that he did that for the family.
The unbelieving family also was moved by how many people there were and that they personally knew them all very well. And we assured them, there were many many more we know. They even talked about how there will be 38,000+ at our convention and that there are over 100 conventions in just the U.S.
This memorial gave an amazing witness...and if some actually came into the truth, because of this... oh, Carol would be so ......
so today is my day to loose it.
ok, I had to stop for 15 mins to regain my composure. Latae is staying out here with me now. Her and Milly had been sleeping in Steph's room. It helps that she is here.
So the girls were going to go with us over to grandpa's but, we want Lauren to get her school work done and get it done for next week, we don't want her to have to ask for an extension. That will just make things harder for her. So we told her to just stay home and get that done. Then, Steph asked about going out with some friends today. She really needs the mental break. She has really struggled with loosing her grandma. She has been in tears every day. So she really needs a mental break as well. She will be home with me tomorrow to help with writing thank you cards.
I am doing ok with my service time, i only need 4 more hours. i don't expect to get more than an hour this week, but there are plenty of days in the month after the convention. So I will be fine with that. I am looking forward to Aux in August.
oh, i recorded the talk too. I didn't ask EO if I should, I just did it. I told him and he said he had though about it. It was such a good talk, I am really glad I did record it.
we did good with our composure until the song at the end. we all expected we wouldn't be able to sing it, and sure enough, into the chorus, yeah, i lost it. EO did too. But then, our new songs, ... i can hardly sing them normally they are just so heart touching. I don't even remember the prayer.
so the physical toll on me, wasn't as bad, I was still struggling with my hips, but i had my chair and i just stayed put as much as i could and i was ok. today... i feel like i was dragged behind a truck from one end of the property to the other. and i look like it too. but the show must go on.
All week, I knew the day after the Memorial I would break down, and sure enough... I was writing down names of people who didn't get to sign the guest book, and I had a chance to visit with one of my cousins. He said, that he had been talking to someone about how he is related to the Nelsons. He said, he didn't know Bill & Carol real well, but the fact he felt they were family, just grabbed my heart, and that was it. The next thing I know, Latae is by my side trying to comfort me. She is always the first to show up. She is the sweetest baby. Milly too will come to me when I cry, but not like Latae. Milly knows something is wrong, but Latae really tries to comfort us.
Well anyway. I babble in order to pull myself out of my grief. Actually, I had other family there as well. Gram, my auntie BRae, Jeff, James & Emma. (Brenda was going to come but came down with a bad cold). I sure hope she is feeling better in time for the Convention. Same thing with Shannon, she had pneumonia... how awful, right before convention. I pray for a speedy recovery so everyone can get the most out of the convention. Rachel says her girls both have pneumonia as well. What a terrible year on the health. All the cold and damp weather, is just awful on everyone's health.
Again I babble to cope. One thing that was just wonderful, is I got to know a few people better. And the friends were so comforting.
the brothers and sisters who handled the food, cleaning, set up and clean up... wow, they never stopped working. we were in awe of their efforts. They did an amazing job!!!! Bill told them all to take food home, and I understand that they did, but when they brought us left over food as well, we were so shocked at how much they brought. Well the cookies can go in the freezer along with some of the buns and meat. The fruit we will try to eat up, and i don't know if you can freeze pasta salad. i dont' think so because of the fresh veggies in it. So, EO is going to be eating pasta salad every day for awhile. Maybe he will take a trip to town and bring some to my mom.
There were a number of worldly family who were very touched by the talk that was given and how many people there were. We had expected there would be more that the number that was there, but there were a lot of people sick and a number of people who just couldn't make it. But then there were a number of people there who we didn't expect to see there and that was really heart touching to see them.
I have been to a handful of funerals given by worldly people and just be sickened by the lack of spiritual encouragement. In fact, they say stuff like "we don't know why they had to die" and "we don't know what God's purpose is" or "we don't know where they are". how does anyone move forward when they loose a loved one when they hear that? Jimmy did a beautiful job on the talk, and used many scriptures to share, what happens to us when we die, why we die and what Jehovah's purpose is for us. Oh and how Jehovah made it possible for us to have the resurrection hope on earth. So for the family who didn't know why we/Carol believes what we do, they were shown right from the Bible, what their church has failed to do always. And a number of them had more questions, and said, they just had no idea that the Bible said all that. The other thing i TOTALLY loved was that Jimmy quoted from more than "our Bible" but other Bible versions as well. Showing we don't "make up our own stuff" but how our Bible is in harmony with Bibles they may use. I loved that he did that for the family.
The unbelieving family also was moved by how many people there were and that they personally knew them all very well. And we assured them, there were many many more we know. They even talked about how there will be 38,000+ at our convention and that there are over 100 conventions in just the U.S.
This memorial gave an amazing witness...and if some actually came into the truth, because of this... oh, Carol would be so ......
so today is my day to loose it.
ok, I had to stop for 15 mins to regain my composure. Latae is staying out here with me now. Her and Milly had been sleeping in Steph's room. It helps that she is here.
So the girls were going to go with us over to grandpa's but, we want Lauren to get her school work done and get it done for next week, we don't want her to have to ask for an extension. That will just make things harder for her. So we told her to just stay home and get that done. Then, Steph asked about going out with some friends today. She really needs the mental break. She has really struggled with loosing her grandma. She has been in tears every day. So she really needs a mental break as well. She will be home with me tomorrow to help with writing thank you cards.
I am doing ok with my service time, i only need 4 more hours. i don't expect to get more than an hour this week, but there are plenty of days in the month after the convention. So I will be fine with that. I am looking forward to Aux in August.
oh, i recorded the talk too. I didn't ask EO if I should, I just did it. I told him and he said he had though about it. It was such a good talk, I am really glad I did record it.
we did good with our composure until the song at the end. we all expected we wouldn't be able to sing it, and sure enough, into the chorus, yeah, i lost it. EO did too. But then, our new songs, ... i can hardly sing them normally they are just so heart touching. I don't even remember the prayer.
so the physical toll on me, wasn't as bad, I was still struggling with my hips, but i had my chair and i just stayed put as much as i could and i was ok. today... i feel like i was dragged behind a truck from one end of the property to the other. and i look like it too. but the show must go on.
Posted by Robyn Nelson.
