EO called the other day to find out when Starks would be loading the truck, so that he could go help out, but after calling all their phones, there was no response.  So Sunday at the meeting he found out they were done.  That made him feel really bad, because he really wanted to help out.  I think to it is kind of closure for him?  He is having a  tough time with their move.  It is just too many at once.  First Lauren & Colton, then loosing his mom, then more of his family moving across the country.  Steph was going to, but seeing how hard EO is handling it all, she has put it off. She is also trying to spend more time at home too and not just staying up with Lauren all week. 

In fact Steph & EO went in service for an hour this morning, and then needed to be over at Starks just after 10am so they could empty out the garage.  (bonding time for Steph & EO)   Starks asked EO if he could come pick up a few things that won't fit in the truck and cars yesterday.  So I went with him as I knew it would be my only chance to say good-bye, ...(there is a reason I don't ride in the truck...OUCH).  We weren't there real long.  But we took one look around and thought... how are they going to fit all this stuff in their cars?  Well, EO offered to pick up whatever doesn't fit, to just leave it in the garage.  Since Randy was going to be there at 10am to clean the carpets, that is why EO & Steph just went out for an hour.  So the two of them are there now loading the truck.  Hope they can haul it all in one trip. Starks were relieved to know we could haul it away for them and we were happy to help.  

With Steph not moving (yet), I thought she would be worried what other people thought, since she has tried to move before.  But in seeing EO, she doesn't care what anyone thinks, she is more concerned about him.  We know she will move, and maybe even later this year, who knows.  But she just can't abandon her dad.  Well, it really isn't abandoning for the kids to start their lives, or for Starks to get a fresh start, but it just kind of feels like it.  We have talked about moving, but we know we can't as long as his dad is here.  Colton and Steph are here in Solon to help out, and Lauren is just in Superior to help out, but still.  EO is in need of some big time therapy and focused encouragement. 

So EO is going to go out and do some fishing.  I am going to stay home, but he will cook up some extra burgers and what not so I have food here.  But, what i mean by focused encouragement is... although we have had really encouraging talks and an encouraging convention, it isn't focused on his specific needs and it isn't a conversation in is instruction.  So he can't really talk about his feelings and just get them off his chest.  He will be able to do that this week.  What I found is, this past month, every day he has been talking about what he is going through and although i've been there, and I support him, but sometimes you just need to talk with someone other than your spouse, because you know they have heard it a hundred times.  What is extra wonderful is his other BFF (not me or his dad) is an elder, so he gets spiritual encouragement as well. So I am so thrilled he will be able to go for a couple days.  He is WAAAAAAAY overdue. 

Like the day's text today, about how the elders reach out and support and encourage the flock.  Boy do we need that!!!!  SOOOOOOO BAD!!!!!!

i feel awful not being able to have reached my goal this week to attend the C.O. visit.  Plus I couldn't reach my goal attending more days of the convention.  It is times like this that i just am so stinkin tired of being sick all the time... and only getting sicker.  Some days it is so frustrating.  I feel slightly better today, well except for my stomach, that is an ugly ugly mess.  But I was sitting here and Steph said I looked like I was going to die.  Really?... I feel a little better and I look like I am going to die???? SHESH! *rolls eyes and smacks forehead*

All last week, even yesterday was indescribably horrific.  and on a day i'm not as incapacitated, and I look like I'm dying.  wonder what i looked like yesterday or for the past week+.  well, i guess it really doesn't matter.

So Lauren is still running a high fever...  she said last night it was 102.8 and now this morning it is down to 100.2, but it has been going down a bit during the day.  Steph too is sick, but her fever hasn't been as high.  Friday and Saturday she ran a higher fever,  Sunday it was about 100, but today it is down to 99 or so.  I think she is past the worst of it.  Lauren I think has it almost as bad as Colton did. His fever was over 103 at times.  I hope hope hope EO doesn't get it.  Actually, I kind of think he had it at the convention.  Cause he was sure sick last week.  That is the bug I think I fought last week, when I had that high fever the whole day.  

It feels like a normal summer day, it is hot and windy.  i wish i could handling being outside.  but the flies are out and i got bit a bunch of times yesterday and have lumps all over my ankles.  it sure hurts.  sometimes i get so sick from bug bites.  i love living in this area, but i hate the bugs.  oh well, what can you do?