Saturday Convention
July 2, 2014
WoW, such wonderful talks on Saturday's program. I am such a reviler.... anyone who talks negative or unflattering about another person, including our spouse and children. I totally got knocked around from that talk. And then to not even associate with people who are like that.
like the other day, i had been at an emotional low for awhile, it has just been such a tragic month for us, and our emotional ebb is really at an all time low, and when I am desperate for some support and encouragement, I take a comment that is meant to be encouraging, but i take it as another slap in the face that I am a failure. That person wasn't trying to attack me, I just felt like it was an attack. I allowed myself to be hurt by them when they were trying to give support. My assumption about what they were saying, was reviling, because I took it negatively.
I have also made comments about various family members, because of my own frustration with being hurt by them... but again, I have to consider, where they really trying to hurt me, or did I just take it negatively. Granted no one is perfect, and at times people will say things without thinking, and that can be very hurtful, but that is no reason to feel negatively towards them. Just like when I slip up, I want to be forgiven when I realize how badly I have messed up.
in a world so full of negative attitudes, it is a real battle to not let that rub off on us. I know one of my shortcomings is I am pron to be negative...very negative. I used to call my self the "queen of negativity" (sad, but a true story). It took so much effort to change, but it is worth it. And when I am weak, I easily slide back to being negative.
EO says he too is guilty of reviling and so we are going to try and work on it together.
So he headed out last night for MN. He called me and said he was about a half a mile from where he was staying, and I thanked him right away, and then asked if he could call when he gets there. I think he about went into the woods because he was laughing so hard. I should try to be more careful about where I spring stuff like that on him.
He left me with a ton of food. So i went to get my lunch, and i was soooo hungry, that i sucked it down so fast, i made myself sick. i had to really focus on breathing slowly and i sipped some ginger ale... i was a breath away from loosing it. that was messed up. i knew i was eating fast, but i was so hungry, i couldn't slow down. i hope i don't make that mistake again.
i didn't sleep good last night at allllllllllll. at first i couldn't go to sleep, then when i did, i was up and down so many times. i am so tuckered out today now. i hope i sleep better. i must just really miss EO.
like the other day, i had been at an emotional low for awhile, it has just been such a tragic month for us, and our emotional ebb is really at an all time low, and when I am desperate for some support and encouragement, I take a comment that is meant to be encouraging, but i take it as another slap in the face that I am a failure. That person wasn't trying to attack me, I just felt like it was an attack. I allowed myself to be hurt by them when they were trying to give support. My assumption about what they were saying, was reviling, because I took it negatively.
I have also made comments about various family members, because of my own frustration with being hurt by them... but again, I have to consider, where they really trying to hurt me, or did I just take it negatively. Granted no one is perfect, and at times people will say things without thinking, and that can be very hurtful, but that is no reason to feel negatively towards them. Just like when I slip up, I want to be forgiven when I realize how badly I have messed up.
in a world so full of negative attitudes, it is a real battle to not let that rub off on us. I know one of my shortcomings is I am pron to be negative...very negative. I used to call my self the "queen of negativity" (sad, but a true story). It took so much effort to change, but it is worth it. And when I am weak, I easily slide back to being negative.
EO says he too is guilty of reviling and so we are going to try and work on it together.
So he headed out last night for MN. He called me and said he was about a half a mile from where he was staying, and I thanked him right away, and then asked if he could call when he gets there. I think he about went into the woods because he was laughing so hard. I should try to be more careful about where I spring stuff like that on him.
He left me with a ton of food. So i went to get my lunch, and i was soooo hungry, that i sucked it down so fast, i made myself sick. i had to really focus on breathing slowly and i sipped some ginger ale... i was a breath away from loosing it. that was messed up. i knew i was eating fast, but i was so hungry, i couldn't slow down. i hope i don't make that mistake again.
i didn't sleep good last night at allllllllllll. at first i couldn't go to sleep, then when i did, i was up and down so many times. i am so tuckered out today now. i hope i sleep better. i must just really miss EO.
Posted by Robyn Nelson.
