so i missed posting on here yesterday.  i was so sick yesterday, i couldn't even read, let alone post anything.  i had to be up for my gal from IRIS who comes quarterly, and that was a struggle, as i haven't been able to do a whole lot of talking, without having a coughing fit.  and that happened when she was here.  i hadn't been talking much, but i had to answer a number of questions, and then the coughing fit was so bad, one of those, that you cough so bad you vomit.  well, it took all my strength to not vomit, twice, i if i had taken a breath i would have vomited. so bad.  but the gal was great and calming, she is used to that sort of thing, since that is what she does, is sees sick people all day long. but i still feel bad to do that to people.  

by the time she left, i was so worn out, i had to go to bed.  it isn't like she was here all that long, but, still concentrating and being so sick for that hour, took every ounce of strength i had and then some.  by the time i went to bed, i had no idea what day it was or even what was happening around me. 

today i woke up with a massive headache.  I woke up a little after Colton had gotten here. we spent the morning visiting and then he was helping EO move the last of my mom's stuff (which is going to Steph) out of Bill's garage.  We wanted it emptied by July.  

I have so much work i need to do in the spare room.  Mostly it is Steph's stuff, except for a few odds and ends.  But it needs to be organized really bad as we just put a number of other things in there recently and it is chaos!!  Someday, I will attack it....i hope.

At last, it stopped raining.  EO hasn't been able to go out and work on wood for...forever, because of all the rain.  Well, yesterday, it didn't rain, but he ended up straining his back.  when he came in, he said.  "well, i was stupid".... He is always so careful, so that if he is working outside or hunting or whatever, that he is not over doing it so he doesn't miss the meeting.  but... he goofed.  he felt so bad about it.  he always beats himself up if he misses a meeting, especially if it was something self inflicted.  He also said, emotionally he really struggled yesterday.  he broke down a couple of times, and I have a feeling that is why he was pushing through the work, to try to keep himself distracted...so that is why he over did it and aggravated his back.  

Lauren and Steph are both feeling better.  Although both are still sick to different degrees, they are both getting back out and about more. Which is always a good.  Lauren was able to work with Tara and Rachel yesterday in service.  She seemed to have a lot of fun with them.  She sent me picks.  Since Steph isn't coughing so much now, hopefully her and EO will be able to get back out in service together.

my voice is doing better today.  i was at nothing but a whisper for a few days.  even though i have the coughing fits if i talk too much, at least i can talk.  i can't get real loud, but at least i can be heard if someone is next to me. they can't hear me if they are in the next room, but at least i am making progress.

i was brushing my teeth this morning and broke down crying.  i have no idea why, so i said a brief prayer and went out and found Colton. I guess that was Jehovah's way of giving me a hug today (cause I got a hug from Colton) he read me the day's text and we talked about the JW app and what not.  he said how he wasn't going to let his fatigue stop him from going to the meeting, but he still fell asleep while he was there.  So even though he missed a lot, he said it was still worth it. that cheered me up so much.  ...it is always worth it!