yesterday was not pretty.  whoa mama!!!  I haven't had to take so many pain pills in... i don't remember. i couldn't handle even the cats jumping on the bed or the slight bump when EO laid his top coat on the bed.  

i know it worried the family.  i just tried to assure them, that from time to time i have really terrible flare ups.  but that eventually it would settle down and i would get back to just feeling crappy...amazingly enough.

i still can't eat much at all.  i found i could handle fresh fruit, and i would have a piece of bread with peanut butter, but that is pretty much it. i'm not drinking even half of what i should be. at least with the fruit i am getting a little more water in it.

this morning, my stomach is still pretty touchy and my lymph nodes are still pretty swollen and huge all over  but i'm going to see if i can "fake" feeling better. i am able to talk a little more.  but i just want to try to assure EO that he doesn't have to be so scared, cause the stress of this horrible flare up is getting to him.  the only thing is, i still can't eat, so i don't know what i can do to "fake" eat.  but maybe if i can be more chatty with him and not so withdrawn, it will comfort him that i am pulling out of this horrible week.  although i still have a terrible cough...which is triggered when i cough.  so... well, i will do my best.