music
August 5, 2014
just woke up needing to listen to music.... huge mistake, it just makes me want to cry. can't listen to my normal rock tunes, it reminds me of my past too much... which is why i don't listen to it much anymore, only on days i feel like fighting...not with anyone, just my own issues, needless to say i don't listen to it much. music just stirs emotions in me way to much. well, anyways, when i listen to music, i have to have something very distracting going on so i don't dwell on my stirred emotions.
funny thing,... been reading a lot lately, as it is quiet and i haven't been able to handle TV... anyway, the more i read, the more i read in dialog. cracks me up. as i was trying to wake up this morning, my arm was in some really odd position, and i was dreaming in dialog about needing to move my arm. i'm so crazy in the head!
can't believe it is August... i missed July completely. oh well. at least i am eating a little bit better. EO is trying to make me stretch my stomach a little more. Man that is a painful process. i'm not really able to handle eating anything different, however, i'm able to manage eating a piece of bread or a small slice of pizza 3 times a day, instead of being on broth and jello. can't handle the thought of eating meat (not counting a few slices of sausage on a slice of pizza). but the thought of meat...a burger, steak...i just make myself sick... seriously, thinking about it. i think that is my biggest issue...that and anything fried... or ok, i'm getting sick thinking about food. so, moving right along. i think i will have jello for breakfast. so much for making progress... my own stupid fault for thinking about food. one thing about it, EO has had it so easy, not having to cook for the past few weeks. but our fridge has looked barren, pretty sad, other than the fruit and jello that is in there. oh well.
i'm keeping up with my service time. even just a tiny bit ahead, so i am very happy about that. i wish i could be further ahead, but at least i'm not behind. the past few days have been so rough, but Jehovah just gets me up each morning and gives just the strength i need to do what i need to do, and then he lets me go back to bed and rest. He is far to good to me. I'll never be worthy, but i will forever be grateful!!
funny thing,... been reading a lot lately, as it is quiet and i haven't been able to handle TV... anyway, the more i read, the more i read in dialog. cracks me up. as i was trying to wake up this morning, my arm was in some really odd position, and i was dreaming in dialog about needing to move my arm. i'm so crazy in the head!
can't believe it is August... i missed July completely. oh well. at least i am eating a little bit better. EO is trying to make me stretch my stomach a little more. Man that is a painful process. i'm not really able to handle eating anything different, however, i'm able to manage eating a piece of bread or a small slice of pizza 3 times a day, instead of being on broth and jello. can't handle the thought of eating meat (not counting a few slices of sausage on a slice of pizza). but the thought of meat...a burger, steak...i just make myself sick... seriously, thinking about it. i think that is my biggest issue...that and anything fried... or ok, i'm getting sick thinking about food. so, moving right along. i think i will have jello for breakfast. so much for making progress... my own stupid fault for thinking about food. one thing about it, EO has had it so easy, not having to cook for the past few weeks. but our fridge has looked barren, pretty sad, other than the fruit and jello that is in there. oh well.
i'm keeping up with my service time. even just a tiny bit ahead, so i am very happy about that. i wish i could be further ahead, but at least i'm not behind. the past few days have been so rough, but Jehovah just gets me up each morning and gives just the strength i need to do what i need to do, and then he lets me go back to bed and rest. He is far to good to me. I'll never be worthy, but i will forever be grateful!!
Posted by Robyn Nelson.
