burger
August 31, 2014
yesterday i had a terrible migraine the whole day. i hadn't slept very well the night before either, so i don't know what was going on with me, but the day was really a blur.
i had been thinking for a number of days that a burger sounded good... not anything big, but just a little one. and it didn't make me sick to think about it. well, it did, if i thought about a big size burger. anyway, i asked EO to make me a tiny one and it was a struggle to eat... he made me two that were only about 4 bites each. my stomach kind of freaked out but i managed to keep them down. i tried again the next day too, but he made them too big, so i couldn't eat much of them. but i think it is an improvement. still other kinds of meat... can't even think about. and like i said, if i even think about eating a big or normal size burger... yikes! but i am pushing myself because it just worries EO so much that i still can't eat. i am eating eggs more often too. every few days i have scrambled eggs. but i can't handle them for dinner, only breakfast or lunch. with a piece of toast. he makes me 2 eggs, and i have yet to be able to eat all of it. i normally have a few bites left of both the eggs and a few of the toast, that i just can't finish. mostly i have a piece of bread with peanut butter on it in the morning. i still can't handle the smell so he has to fold it for me before i can get near it. and then i hold my breath while i eat it. is it really progress? at night when i am starving, i eat 4 crackers and can't eat another bite. ? maybe it isn't progress... ok, the burger is progress, so i am going to go with that.
i feel so drained today. i ran a fever last night, and today my hips are super flared up and angry. always something to deal with.
oh, and i still am having trouble gripping a pen. yesterday was really bad again. wish i knew what was going on. my wrist has be hurting a lot too. so maybe the carpal tunnel is what is giving me trouble. maybe my hand and wrist just need a rest. well, i will be reducing my time in half again, so i hope that helps. as much as i would love to do the 30 hours all the time, clearly it is beyond my physical abilities. hope i can keep going with the 15. although for Sept. i wouldn't be surprised if i need to reduce it to 10-12 just to give my wrist a break. i guess i will just have to wait and see.
i had been thinking for a number of days that a burger sounded good... not anything big, but just a little one. and it didn't make me sick to think about it. well, it did, if i thought about a big size burger. anyway, i asked EO to make me a tiny one and it was a struggle to eat... he made me two that were only about 4 bites each. my stomach kind of freaked out but i managed to keep them down. i tried again the next day too, but he made them too big, so i couldn't eat much of them. but i think it is an improvement. still other kinds of meat... can't even think about. and like i said, if i even think about eating a big or normal size burger... yikes! but i am pushing myself because it just worries EO so much that i still can't eat. i am eating eggs more often too. every few days i have scrambled eggs. but i can't handle them for dinner, only breakfast or lunch. with a piece of toast. he makes me 2 eggs, and i have yet to be able to eat all of it. i normally have a few bites left of both the eggs and a few of the toast, that i just can't finish. mostly i have a piece of bread with peanut butter on it in the morning. i still can't handle the smell so he has to fold it for me before i can get near it. and then i hold my breath while i eat it. is it really progress? at night when i am starving, i eat 4 crackers and can't eat another bite. ? maybe it isn't progress... ok, the burger is progress, so i am going to go with that.
i feel so drained today. i ran a fever last night, and today my hips are super flared up and angry. always something to deal with.
oh, and i still am having trouble gripping a pen. yesterday was really bad again. wish i knew what was going on. my wrist has be hurting a lot too. so maybe the carpal tunnel is what is giving me trouble. maybe my hand and wrist just need a rest. well, i will be reducing my time in half again, so i hope that helps. as much as i would love to do the 30 hours all the time, clearly it is beyond my physical abilities. hope i can keep going with the 15. although for Sept. i wouldn't be surprised if i need to reduce it to 10-12 just to give my wrist a break. i guess i will just have to wait and see.
Posted by Robyn Nelson.
