i can't believe it has been 5 years since Kelly passed. all week, i have been doing everything to distract myself from thinking about it.  yet, ... it really hurts.

couldn't sleep last night. i had a late night fever, and then my lymph nodes were swelling in both my throat and hips and under my arms.  so it was a rough night, which makes today a really rough day.

so the past few months, one problem i have been dealing with is... sitting.  i try not to let anyone see me stand back up after sitting for a bit... the pain to get up.. is horrific. wish i knew what that is all about.  Which is why i don't post much these days.  it is just so painful to get back up after sitting for awhile. (15 mins or more)

i am truly delighted to still get visitors from time to time.  even though sitting causes me so much pain, it is heart warming to have the support from the sisters.  Encouragement is always appreciated!