Yesterday, I had terrible pain that ran all the way around me every time I tried to sit up or stand.  I would get us to use the bathroom, and the pain was mostly in my belly, and after just a couple minutes the pain would become unbearable.  Then once I laid back down, it would take several minutes and the pain would ease.  I had to take so many pain pills yesterday, I should have been high as a kite, yet, I wasn't.  It was so bad, even having Milly laying on me was more than I could stand.  The pain had started the day before, but yesterday it just maxed out. I really am not sure what was going on.  It could have been because of my lymph nodes, but i'm not positive, perhaps it had to do with the antibiotics that I have to take.  If so, at least I only have to be on them a short time.

It is strange, I haven't slept very well lately.  I'm not sure what is going on with me, but I sure hope it comes to an end soon.  I thought maybe it too had to do with the extra meds I have had to be on lately.  I sure hope once I am done with them, I will be doing better.  I never bothered to look up the side effects on the antibiotics.  But then, I don't always have the same kind the "textbooks" have.  

I also have such a nasty headache today.  a real axe in the forehead type.  I am so stinkin tired too.  ok, so the fact is, I am sicker than normal and struggling.

EO had gone yesterday to see his mom.  He just had to go see her after she had such a terrible day.  So yesterday they were able to get her pain level back under control so she was more comfortable.  We are all worried, as she still can't hardly eat or drink anything.  So even though the chemo is working, she is so weak, she can't do much by herself.  She manages to walk to the bathroom, but just barely and has to have help.  It is just so sad.  She has missed out 2 weeks now of Chemo, so we are hoping that she will be able to get back on the treatment.  The doc wanted her to recoup so her numbers could go back up, however, the fact she can't hardly eat or drink anything, makes me wonder, how her numbers can even improve.  Well, we will see what tomorrow brings.

Today's meeting sure was wonderful.  Lauren always says her favorite talks are when it is a close examination of Jehovah's creations.  Steph too loves those parts the most.  So to have both a Public Talk and a WT lesson on the creation, it was just extra frosting on a cake... ok, maybe not for some... but i prefer frosting vs. cake, that isn't for everyone but I'm sure there is another illustration what may appeal to others.

Steph had her last day of work yesterday at the Merk.  I guess they might be going to sell the coffee shop equipment.  Sad part is, they really didn't do much to promote the coffee shop.  It was just getting going too.  But instead of hiring someone to run it, they may just shut it down.  So sad.  I wish we had the means and a place to set up a coffee shop.  I bet if JT's set up a coffee shop they would do really well.  Oh well.  Steph is so happy to be out of that job now.  She is really hoping she gets the job at Penera.  

Oh and that other interview was will a "placement" agency.  It was for a office administrator job in Superior, but during that interview, they access her to see what other jobs she would qualify for and put her application into.  So I don't know what other jobs they had her apply for.  But between the tests she had to do and the interview, they think they can place her into a good full time job.  She said she wants one that provides benefits like Penera. 

When the sub CO's wife talked to Steph about how moving to the cities can be spiritually damaging and since we have talked to the girls, and Colton sharing his experience, Steph is thinking about moving to Duluth and Lauren is considering moving with her.  It won't be for awhile, but maybe next year.  Colton has already put in his request to have both of the girl's rooms, if they both move...So funny.  We are trying to encourage Lauren to get some of her bills paid down... before she goes.. which she has been doing anyways, but we are just encouraging her to keep that focus.   So I don't know if she will be moving or not.  But she would like to move with Steph.  They both want to be in a cong that is very warm and supportive.  Lauren is thinking she might like to get involved with the sign language group.  I thought maybe Colton would want to move as well with them, however, he really wants to just stay in Solon, but who knows.  Maybe by next spring it could be just EO & I living here. Wouldn't that be something?

So EO and I would like to go some place for our anniversary.  Not real far, and not for real long as I just don't travel well anymore.  I've always wanted to visit Mackinac Island and spend a weekend there, but it is a little spendy.  And we have been interested in visiting door county.  We thought about going up the north shore.  I just really want to go stay somewhere it has an outstanding view of the water.  We even have thought about staying in Duluth.  But I don't want to do that for our 25th.  I would like to go someplace we have never been before. I would love to be somewhere warm where we can sit and listen to the waves crashing on the shore.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE that sound.  But most lakes do give that sound.  Lake Superior does, but... but   why can't we have a Hawaiian beach be in our yard.  Palm trees, fragrant flowers and the sound of the waves crashing on the beach.  But up here in May it is often foggy, cold and not so pretty.  Down towards the cities the Lilacs are already in bloom (which is one reason we go down there for our anniversary).  But there isn't a lake big enough for the right effect.  If there isn't a hotel with the right lake view, then one that has a view of a beautiful valley and mountains... 

One time, we didn't even know where we were going to go.  Every time we came to an intersection with a left or right only turn, we flipped a quarter.  We ended up in Hudson, WI.  We stayed at a Holiday Inn express, that had a Jacuzzi and we watched a NASCAR race and order pizza in.  We had so much fun just being together and not having anyplace we had to be.  The next day we just did it all over again, and we ended up at an auction.  That was a lot of fun too.  But it was hard on me physically, but we still really just enjoyed being together.

This year, I am so much sicker than I have ever been.  I just want to find a hotel with an amazing view.  Like when we girls went to CA, we sat on our deck and watched the various birds, and listened to the waves crashing on the rocks below.  I would love to be someplace next to a waterfall. That would be fabulous!  So I am going to keep searching for a place to go.