wow... i can't believe what an incredibly long day yesterday was.  granted i know it started at 4:30am for me, and it ended at midnight, but still.  i was so happy on our way home, when EO and I were talking about what he needed to do, (mow the lawn at the apts) we figured he should do that after dinner and then, he would/did check on his dad and when he got home he was able to lay down and vegg and the part that made us happy is that he could sleep in until 10am. his aunts and some of the sisters helped him so that he could get some rest.  Including Lauren.  We made sure she too could sleep in this morning.  She really needed it as well.  

Now EO left at 11am and will get there in time for when the last scheduled helper ends their shift.  At first, the shifts were longer, but now he only puts others on 3-4 hour shifts.  Although some have asked for longer shifts, he will only have them stay longer if they are really determined to stay longer. We just know how mentally and emotionally and physically stressful it is to be there tending to her.  The Villa staff is still taking good care of everyone and that is so wonderful and helpful.  

as for my day... ooooh... Oby's Day... 

well, when we got there, Lauren walked me up to the apt and Steph was just getting up and getting ready to go to work.  We all talked for a bit and ma even came out to find out who was there.  I laid down but i couldn't sleep, i was too warm. but i rested until it was time for me to leave for my apt. 

i went and saw my stomach doc and he talked a little about Barretts and the pre-cancer. he gave me some meds to try and help me.  I said, it is very likely that because of the high stress we are under right now that might be why i have had non stop terrible abdomen pain for the past several days.  i thought maybe because of sleeping on my left side, but it hasn't improved by not going on my left.  so, then it is most likely stress. 

funny thing, he asked how our kids are.  we told him about Steph and he talked about how much he LOVES Panera Bread and how excited he and his wife were when they learned they were opening one up in Duluth.  

then he said how impressed he was with Colton to want to be a CNA and that it was so wonderful that he works where his Grandma is and he can be there for her.

Then when we talked about Lauren... he just fell in love with her.  He said recently he had to care for his own mother who was in a wheel chair, and as he described his mom, we told him she sounded exactly like my own mom.  He said, had he not cared for her, he would never have known the mental and emotional toll it takes, and how physically demanding it is to live with someone who needs round the clock care. he says anyone who can do that, he has the utmost respect for.  and the fact she is a young woman, to do that and to do on line schooling...  well, he was just smitten.   

he just has a whole new view of us.

then after we left there i went to the chiropractor.  oh....sweet relief. my back feels so much better. my neck was too tight to get any reaction from, but i will go in on the 16th  after my muscles have settled down and i think it will cooperate then.  
i got my wheel chair yesterday.  i am really happy about that.  i am wondering how we are going to manage with the four of us, our luggage and my chair in one car for convention.  i am sure i will figure it out.

after all of that, i went back to Lauren's and crashed on the couch.  my auntie was there and it was so nice to be able to visit with her.  i still wasn't able to get any sleep, but i just laid on the couch and visited with everyone. 

as for today... i woke up with the most blinding headache.  i took stuff and went back to sleep.  when i woke up i still head the headache.  so i took more meds and decided to get up and so a little letter writing.  headache and all.    i listened to some WT mags on  JW.org and that helped distract me somewhat.  

my muscles in my back are really hurting.  my neck is awful, my head is splitting wide open.  i'm horrible tired, and my whole entire abdomen is screaming at me.   plus i am sooooooooooooo nauseated i can hardly stand it.   i knew i would be sick today, but this........... this i would only wish on Satan.  

mostly i am typing with my eyes closed, because it is too hard to keep them open and it just makes my headache worse.  to open them.  why don't i just go to bed, because.... because... because the pain is so bad, i can't handle it.  in bed there isn't enough to distract me from the pain.

this is one of those days, i would be tempted to go to the ER, however, i feel like i have enough pain meds around here, i should be able to get some sort of relief. ...you would think, anyways.

oh... at the moment, i think i found a position that is helping.  i have my head down....chin to chest and my eyes closed and it is taking the edge off.. in fact i'm almost afraid to move as i don't want to loose the sweet relief.  on top of everything else, 

i have my review for my medicare insurance... we sent everything in, and they messed everything up.  they didn't listen to any of the changes i wrote down... well, not any...they did listen to some, but i told them Lauren moved and they didn't change that.  i told them we have a different car, and they put that down but didn't removed the car we don't have anymore.  but they say Steph is in middle school...???? idiots.  they didnt' removed EO working for my mom  and now i have to redo everything they messed up and get it all faxed in today... with how awful i am feeling and i have to do this too.  well i have the paper work done.   i will just have EO fax it in when he gets home tonight. 

it is still mostly helping to keep my head down and eyes closed.  but i think i will close this and try and get some rest.  i feel like i can do that now.  not sure if it will work, but i need to try.  i am so thankful Jehovah got me through yesterday and made it possible for EO and Lauren to get some extra sleep.   It even worked out that he was able to go with me to my doc apts yesterday.  we didn't think he was going to be able to, but his aunt stayed with Carol, and that allowed EO to be able to go.  it was a good break for him to get away for a little while.  he was close to his breaking point so now he can get back to it again.