So yesterday, Steph was down St. Croix Falls (will be back tonight), Colton was in the Cities (will be back ??), EO & Jeff were ice fishing so it was just Lauren and I at home.  I was in the other room when my phone rang and I didn't get to it in time.  I saw it was my mom, so I called her right back and she said.... I'm on the floor and I can't get up.  I thought she fell.. and through my head I said..."help, I've fallen and I can't get up" and I was ready to call 911... well.. she said I dropped my pen and I wanted it so I got onto the floor (can't figure out how) and I got my pen but I can't get back up, I'm stuck on the floor.  She was breathing hard and she said I am right next to my oxygen and I have been using that and I could reach my inhaler so I used that too.  I quick thought of who might be there to help her and I wasn't sure if anyone would be home.  So I woke Lauren up and we ran out the door to get there..  So when we got there, Lauren moved her wheel chair, I took mom's hands and Lauren lifted her from under her arms and we got her up and into bed.   I told her... please, if something falls on the floor, just leave it until someone comes.  She said, well now I know I can't get back up, she said she wasn't even sure how she got down there to begin with.  Oh mom.  it has been awhile since I've seen her... (talk to her often on the phone just not in person) and she held her arm up.  I asked her what was happening with her arms.  I said they are withering and her hands too, they are so tiny.  She is like, oh yeah, they are like that.  (like "no biggie").  

Afterwards I asked Lauren about it, and she said, yeap.  She can't use them anymore.  She says she sees her everyday so she doesn't even notice so much the change, but EO sees it more, but for me it was a big shock.  Lauren said, that is why we worry about her having to go into a nursing home.  

Oh plus mom proceeds to tell me how the doctor says because of the stroke arthritis has taken over her left side and her left leg is dying.  She found that out because she asked why her foot itches all the time.  And that was the reason he gave her.  

Stress... there is too much of it

I had such an awful headache yesterday, I didn't get my bible reading done.  so today I did extra.  Lately, I just feel so much more content.  Normally when we have a house guest for an extended visit (more than a few days) I start getting tense.  After a week, I feel stressed.  This time I don't have an ounce of it yet.  maybe i won't.  I have to say, it has to do with my new routine of bible reading.  When ever I have had a regular routine I have been more relaxed.  But when my routine gets broken down and it isn't solid, stress just makes me anxious.  The last 2 years I haven't been able to have a regular routine because it is just so hard to read anymore.  There is reading and there is reading with a purpose of benefiting from what is being read.  I think Jehovah saw that need to have the WT.org site adjusted to help us, cause it is so so so so so awesome.

Oh, mom was also saying she was having a hard time doing her bible reading as well, so I put a shortcut on her browser right to the Bible and I told her to click on MP3... and I said MP3 like 25 times I was there and I made her repeat it and I tested her... I told her when she looked at the boxes, I knew she wouldn't know what the other 3 were but I knew she would know what MP3 was as she has one... she said that made sense to her.  I showed her what would come up and how easy it is to click on the book she wants and to click on the chapter she wants.  and how easy it is to pause and come back to it.  She is so excited to use that now.

I think one of my favorite things about the bible being read is it isn't just read but it is read with expression and emotion so that it really pulls at your heart, it is perfect!

Ok, so today I'm still dealing with some light spasms in my back and I have another knot in my neck.  Stress is just eating me up.  I maybe relaxed but I'm still knotting up.  So I am just going to do a mild workout and if the spasms get worse, I will lay off.  Oh, I haven't been able to do my 7am workout because of the extra house guest, the activity is busier.  

Oh, and this morning about 8am, the guy had to come to fix our furnace.  Even though we use the wood stove, when it is this cold we run the furnace in the morning for a bit and at night to make sure our pipes don't freeze up.  Plus it gives the furthest ends of the house a bit of heat too.  So, that stress is costing us $138 of more stress. EO says he can pay some this month and pay the rest next month.  It is just always something.