So Steph & Lauren have asked me a bunch of times now if I'm ok.  I must look bad today.  I am in so much pain today, I can hardly stand it.  I slept good, but I guess I didn't wake up good.  The pain is so bad.  I've taken my morning meds, now I can take a pain pill... but which one should I take.  Wow that fan is dirty, I think I will ask Steph to clean it tonight.  Pain pain go away, don't come back any other day... sad i know.  i think i will go back to bed instead of laying in the living room.

oh the pain, i can't stop shaking.  

so Lauren bought a new bed, well, ordered it.  it is gorgeous!!!!!!!!!  it is the frame i am talking about, as she has a really good mattress set.  Steph needs a mattress desperately, so I did a little research on it.  but really she needs to go try out mattresses.  so then i was looking at bed frames, and i thought, i will look at some styles for our new system house.  i wanted to see if i can find the one i have always wanted, but i haven't found it yet.   I have a thing for spiral or scroll work.  EO says i like things that are "twisted", so that is our joke, and it is true, because he is my favorite twisted work of all.  hahaha  This is sort of the type I would like, the headboard isn't right and the posts are too skinny. 

I think I recorded what I like a long time ago (on this site) EO wanted to get a new bedroom set and he wanted me to pick it out.  I told him NO as we could never afford what I really want, and i don't know if I could even find what I want.  i told him to pick something out, because I will never be happy if I have to pick it out, but i would be content if he picked it out.  One day we were in some huge store and I said, there it is, there is the bed I want.  EO said where?  I said way over there.  So we walked way across the store and there it was, so gorgeous so massive so awesome.   This amazing scroll 4 poster bed. with furniture to match.  The bed frame alone cost over $3000 and this was 15+ years ago. EO couldn't figure out how I even saw it, but I just knew it was the one.  I didn't stay long to look at it because I knew it would drive me crazy wanting it.  I just figured that I would have it in the new system.  

pain pain pain....

To continue the story, the same thing happened when it came to picking out a dinning set.  EO wanted me to pick it out, I said no.  Then one day I spotted the set I wanted, way across the store.  Again he didn't know how I saw it.  I said, "THERE IT IS, THE SET I WANT"  So we went to take a look.  Gorgeous mahogany, with scroll work not only on the table legs but on the chairs as well.  It was just fabulous!  The table with 4 chairs was $3200, to get 2 more chairs was another $800 (captain chairs).  That was a good 15 + years ago too.  So again, I figured in the new system I would make my furniture and have just what I want.

I remember when we went to some antique furniture stores in Stillwater, there were some AMAZING pieces of furniture.  HUGE pieces that wouldn't fit in an ordinary house, it would have to be in a house with huge ceilings.  I was in my glory there among the pieces.  I didn't want to leave and it was torture to walk away from it.  All I could think is, one day I would be back to get some of those... in the new system I mean.  The bedroom set I would have liked to have would have cost over $50,000.  the dinning room set would have been over $75,000.  It is crazy how much it was, but I loved it!!!  Again, in the new system I will have pieces I really enjoy.  

One thing about those pieces of furniture was, I felts safe around them.  It isn't like I once had items like that, or I have some sentimental attachment to items like that.  But it was more like they suited me and I felt at ease while I was around them.  I wish I could understand it.  I do have to say, in a day an age that we could loose everything at anytime, if I had the items I would really like, it would be hard to walk away.  Well to a degree, as I know in the new system, I can make more.  But I think in this system it is a good thing to not have items like that.  My biggest fear was being turned into a pillar of salt like Lot's wife, because she couldn't let things go.  

There are so many things I want to do in the new system, like learn how to build furniture, and blow glass, make stained glass, travel, have people stay with us, have many bible studies, learn about other cultures, and on and on and on.  I've had a list of things i've wanted to do, maybe someday I will post it on here.  

The pain pill is helping a little, but I've been up longer than I expected.  I think now when I go climb in bed, I won't be reeling in pain.