Never even took a nap yesterday, but i couldn't with all the time i spent in the bathroom yesterday.  It was so awful... i don't want to go through another day like yesterday.  funny thing is, i don't remember taking my pain/sleep pills last night, just too many distractions, but when i looked at my pill dish, they were gone.  I do remember refilling my pill dish.  when i take my last bunch of pills, then that is when i refill my pill dish.  So how i missed taking them the night before... well, i went to refill my dish, and saw i hadn't taken them, but i looked at the clock and it was way to early to take them... i should have just stopped and not filled my dish, oh wait... i have one more pill i take after my pain/sleep pills... and the mystery is even more mysterious... how i took my last pill.... see, there aren't enough slots for me to leave my last pill of the night... so i put it with my first pills of the morning, so just in case i forget, i will get it in the morning, but... i have an alarm on my phone so i seldom forget to take that pill. i have an alarm for the others too, but that was when there was so much chaos.  Well in any case, i took them and i slept!

now for today.  I am going up with EO & Bill to see Carol.  I will also see ma and Lauren.  But the reason i am going, is because i have to have a blood test done for my thyroid.  they upped my pill dose so now they need to check it. it will be a long day, as my hip is just SCREAMing today.  

I walked out this morning and Colton was sitting at our table looking at magazines.  He was waiting for us to wake up as he needed EO's help for a little bit.  then he can go to his apt and go to sleep, since he worked last night.  

Before i forget again... it was a wonderful "Special Talk" yesterday.  What stayed with me the most is the one thing that has gotten me through all the hardships, pains and unjust things that has happened with me and my family... but also for all those who have had to go through injustice.  And that is, "Jehovah knows".  when no one around you knows the truth, or no one even cares, Jehovah knows.  Through all my ailments since i was so little, what comfort me the most is that Jehovah knows what I am going through, and when i start to feel "alone" or that no one cares, i remember, "Jehovah knows" and He cares.  

I guess I could go on for hours about all the ways I have felt strengthened to endure just knowing, Jehovah sees all and knows and most of all, He feels for us, for what we have to go through.

I have a new problem.  I seem to be having some swelling in my left ear.  Two days ago, I had a mass below my ear, but nothing right up behind my ear.  Yesterday I felt some swelling, and there was a little lump there.  By the time i went to bed, it was double the size and really pushing on my ear.  I haven't noticed my masses to grow that fast.  So I am thinking it might be a lymph node.  I thought about going to see my ENT today, but today it isn't pushing as hard, so I am going to wait.  If it is just a lymph node, it will most likely go back down to size.  so for now, I will just "keep an eye on it".  cause that would be a real trick if i kept a literal "eye" on it.