This pic was when I was 2 years old.  I used to play under the kitchen table, then one day I decided to take a nap on the chairs, but no one knew I had done this.  They didn't know where I was and began looking for me.  After searching the house, they searched outside.  The whole neighborhood was searching for me frantically.  Then my mom ran into the house to get something, and out of the corner of her eye, she caught a glimpse of something she didn't recognize.  When she pulled the chair away, she saw me like this.  I can only imagine the panic and relief everyone had when I was found.
I have a number of pictures of me sleeping in some odd place, and the one thing they all had in common was, I chose those places because they were cool (temperature speaking).  the seat I was on was cool for my face.  To this day, I can't sleep if I am warm.
 
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 So my nerves and shaking didn't get better, it only got worse as the day went on.  I was under so much pressure, it seemed as if everyone was depending on me to solve problems, and on top of the stress I was under for the past month with Colton, the girls and my mom... I snapped.  I prayed and prayed and prayed, yet I couldn't take one more problem,... i lost it.  I just broke down and screamed and cried.  EO, said he didn't realized what I meant when I said "I'm tired", what I meant was, I was totally maxed out due to stress.  So EO & the girls listened to me, Lauren read a scripture, but she broke down crying and EO kept reading... I'm drawing a blank on the scripture, I just remember it said... "all scriptures were written ... for our instruction... that through the comfort and endurance we might have hope...".  Which was what I needed.  I needed instruction, comfort and hope.  Steph held me for the longest time.  Although we didn't really have a solution, now they know and we will just hang on to each other to get through this really rough time.  I just had no idea how hard it was going to be.  I knew there were problems, but not to this degree.  I told them I feel like I'm walking on egg shells constantly, and they all agreed they feel the same way.  I don't know if I will survive this one.  I want out.  I know Jehovah can make give us the strength to endure or make the way out, so that we are not tempted beyond what we can bear...  i want out, i just want out, i can't take anymore, please let me out.  But, if Jehovah wants me to hang on longer....  please help me be calm, strong and... I can't do it... please give me the power beyond what is normal to hang on until this is over.