I'm not sure if this is Jesus, I think he looks more like Moses.  But with all the comments, they sure sound like Israelites.  hahaha...  I know, I know, the queen of the food intolerance's here.  But it did make me think... just be grateful for what we have and not picky about what we don't have.

So Lauren has already signed up for the reduced cost health insurance.  She has been paying for her hospitalization insurance this past year, and it is over $100 a month.  (ouch).  However as of December first she will only have to pay $50 (something) a month.  

And since it is required, I am trying to help EO get signed up as well.  If he signs up by Dec 15th, he won't have to pay a penalty next year and it will begin Jan 1st.  All he needs is hospitalization.  But I am a little stuck right now.  I did most of the work to it already.  But I need to ask Lauren & Leon about the next steps.  I do hope it won't cost too much.

Yeah, like I figured I am sore today.  Well, I was sore yesterday from trying not to fall.  But I hurt even more today.  And I am back to not needing a blanket at night, as EO gives off so much heat, he is an oven.  Where as while he was gone, I often used two double layered double sided fleece (making it 4 double sided layers of fleece) at night.  And now, just a sheet.  I'm good with that.

He has so much work he needs to do today.  Some of it is hunting stuff and some isn't.  He is just trying to get caught back up after being gone a week.  So he will be in and out all day.  

Steph opened the coffee shop this morning.  She has an apt later, so she won't be home until later this evening. Colton is house/apt sitting for the weekend.  I don't remember if he has to work this weekend or not.  He sure likes his job.  And that leaves Lauren.  I think she will be working on her aprons today.  I need her to start a fire.  I'm really getting cold.

OK, I have been pushing this out of my head for awhile now, not wanting to succumb to the effects of my heartache.  With everything going on with our moms, I am trying so hard not to think about it.  On the 28th, it will be 4 years since Kelly passed.  I try SO hard NOT to think about it, as it just kills me, and especially with all that is going on with our moms.  But, every time someone mentions Leah, no matter how hard I try not to, I still think of Kelly.  Kelly died the week before Leah died.  I was still in agony over Kelly, when EO told me about Leah.  He didn't want to tell me, he just grabbed me and I tried to get away, but couldn't.  He held me for the longest time.  With all that is going on, I just can't deal with thinking about it.  It does't matter that it has been 4 years, it seems like yesterday and hurts just as bad.  But, there has been so much talk about Leah the past couple weeks...  as much as I want to be a support for her family, I just can't.  I've been trying to be strong for EO and the kids with all that they are going through, when really I am so frail.  I am just going to have to keep pushing it out of my mind, because, I can't fall apart now, not when our family is so stressed right now.  I may have to not read some of the posts by Leah's family for a couple weeks, or maybe just limit myself and not dwell on it.  Well, whatever I do, I will just lean on Jehovah for the strength to endure, because I have no strength to spare.   

I didn't hear anything about when my mom goes in for her testing.  I did find out they removed another 2 liter of fluid from Carol.  So she should be breathing and eating better again for a few days.  I think Monday she gets a double dose of Chemo.  So next week might be a little harder on her.  I don't know if he have worked out enough kinks that the double dosing will go smoother or not.  It has been 90 days since she last saw home and 94 since this began.