So silly!
It is so warm and windy out today, it feels like a storm is coming.  I don't even know if there is one coming but I have pain in every part of my body, like something is going on with the weather.  I can't even stand up straight.  I had to take extra pain meds before I even got my regular meds in me.  So yeah, it is going to be another tough day.

I really haven't touched my paper work today.  After I finished the book of Ezra, I started writing letters and greeting cards.  I wrote to my grandma a longer letter as I haven't written in awhile.  She has a real bad head cold right now.  So I wanted to write to her.  Especially since I have my service time in.  Then I wrote a card to Dianne had that surgery this morning, and a card to Duane since he had a pace maker put in yesterday.  I have a card for Andria all done, as she still isn't home yet.  I wrote one out to Anne.  Oh and I sent out two thank you cards for those I can't email, for helping us with the party.  I feel like I am forgetting one... ?  Oh well, at least they are all done now.  Oh and we sent out an anniversary card too.  That is the one I forgot.  It is just kind of crazy how everything is happening all at once for people.  Especially for the Harris family.  April was a tough month for everyone!   

I feel so bad, with so much going on this past month, I have been mixing up dates and... I thought Colton's classes started in May but they don't start until July.  I don't know how I mixed that up... he talked about stuff he had to do next month, and with him taking so many classes at such different times, I had it all backwards.   Besides my brain being messed up and slow to process, I have Lauren doing things, Steph doing things, Leon doing things, B&C doing things, mom doing things... this is my world and I can't keep up with it.  Not to mention everyone else's stuff going on.  Some get annoyed with me when I can't keep things straight.  I get annoyed with me.  I feel like I am hanging on by a thread and that thread is very frayed! It just feels like, when I mess things up, they think I don't care enough to try and remember what they said.  That isn't the case.  It is just too many of my files are sealed shut and I can't get them opened again.   I guess I just feel like I'm in the way and not worth talking to, as I am not going to keep anything straight in the first place.   I know, it is just my own self worth issues.  I am coming off a high from aux pioneering and I'm crashing now and feeling worthless.

my fingers are just SCREAMING at me now as I have done way to much writing and typing.