Last night, was the first night in I don't know how long, that we all (including Colton) sat together and had dinner.  I made most of it myself, not sure how I pulled that off, I guess cause it was easy, everything was one step.  Colton picked out the meal.  Leon found these bbq ribs, all ready to go, they just have to be heated.  He got 2 different kinds so I made them both, Colton also asked for apple sauce, baked potatoes and green beans.  I also included corn.  So they were all easy.  I did do up a batch of sugar & cinnamon to sprinkle on the apple sauce (since that was unsweetened). 

Colton said he would like to come again tonight, I think I will have the girls make a chicken dinner with mashed potatoes, veggies & cranberries. 

I wrote a letter yesterday to Jim & Sandi.  That was so hard to do.  Sunday (tomorrow) will be 1 year.  I apologized for not writing sooner.  I'm so selfish.  I can't get over my grief to be there for someone else.  I hate that about me.  I can't cope so i with draw.  Plus with my low self worth, i figure no one would miss me anyways.  Boy do I have issues.  Yesterday I talked to Sharron and she said she really looks forward to having the ability to not recall these things again. I have to agree with that.

It has been a rough year, my health has gotten so much worse, my brain has me incoherent.  We just so need that new system.