even sicker today.  had a fever last night.  Today super swollen lymph nodes under my arms and in my hips.  Bad pain.  Today i am actually looking forward to going to the doctor in a couple weeks.  I actually wish my apt was sooner.  Now I must be in terrible shape if I WANT to go to the doctor.  I have a feeling i will be having a number of doc apts once I go in for my physical. i am getting a new doc as my old doc moved away.  just when i get my doc trained in, she moves away.  pain... sharp stabbing pain... and now it is starting to ease up...and breath.  it is just another tough day.

Lauren just left for work.  Steph left a couple hours ago for work.  Colton is sleeping as he had to work last night.  EO is running around doing different things.  Sadly there has been a lot going on today in the house.  I doubt Colton has gotten much sleep at all.

The other night, Colton found his first patient who had passed away.  one other time he had checked on a patient, and then 1/2 hour later she died, but someone else found her.  but this time, he was the one.  he handled it well.  Working in a nursing home, it is to be expected.  But on the plus side, he can assist Carol with some things.  Although, by the time he gets to work, she is often asleep, and she doesn't get up real often during the night.  I don't know if she is awake in the morning before he gets off work. so there isn't a lot to do for her during the night.  But it is nice that he is there if she did need him for anything.

ok, i can't take anymore.  hope tomorrow is better.