this is so cool, it is made with cups of coffee.

I am frustrated, ok, hurt is more like it.  the thing is, a friend lied to my face about some issues.  i suspected i was being lied to, but to have the confirmation, it still hurts. It isn't just me, but others in my family have been effected as well.  I can't go into the details. but i am just still... we asked over and over and over and over again, trying to get the truth out of them, "is this ok to do or what is the situation, please feel free to say No, please, it's ok to say no?" and what we got back was, "not to worry, it is fine, go ahead, we support you".  

sigh, then we get treated like we are the enemy and we see 80 shades of crazy psychopath.  seriously?  if they would have just told the truth in the first place... how are we suppose to know there was a problem, since you never told us anything about it.  AUGH

Oh well.... it can't be undone.

What do you do when you know a person is capable of unspeakable evil. For a number of years now, we have known we have to watch our step around certain ones.  Every oddity over the years makes sense, because we learned the truth.  We know we have been used, lied to, and betrayed.  We watch our step and keep contact at a bare minimum.   But every so often when we have to cross paths, sometimes it is a pleasant encounter and sometimes it cuts us deep.

It doesn't matter if we have been hurt repeatedly by them, all we want is for things to get better for them.

I am still keeping up with my Bible reading and doing as much as I can in the ministry.  Although I have days where I feel like a mess, the study program I am doing now, is far better structured and it is really helping me be more grounded.  If I have to miss my morning routine, I am distressed all day.  It is really the highlight of my day.