The past few mornings, I have not wanted to get out of bed.  I have been waking up late... about 10am.  CRAZY late.  I'm sure the weather has something to do with it.  But I managed to get up, and complete my morning worship.  

Family worship yesterday was so nice.  We all did some research on entertainment.  There has been so much talk about seeing various movies.  There have been bros & sis watching movies with ghosts, zombies, vampires and other supernatural things.  Well, we had bought a movie and watched it.  I didn't mind the movie and watched once in a while, where no one else wanted to see it again.  Then the past few weeks the discussion we have been having about good and bad movies, the family expressed how much they didn't like that movie.  So it went into the "toss out" pile.  I felt if it bothered them that much, I wouldn't watch it again.  The other day I saw a description on the Direct TV guide, and it called the people who were infected with a virus as vampires.  I was shocked.  I didn't think they were, because they were infected and the doctor was trying to cure them.  Well... after I thought about it, I could see, yeah, they were vampire like.  So I shared that with the family last night, and they had to think about it, and they agreed they were vampire like.  What is odd is, the jacket cover doesn't say that they were vampires either.  Anyway, we said it was good we got rid of it.  And that we can't decide for each other as we all hold accounting to Jehovah, but we have to be balanced and do our best to take Jehovah's guidance in determining what we should or shouldn't watch.  Afterwards we finished the 3rd chapter of our new book.  

EO is going to be bringing in some wood today as the next few days are going to be pretty cold.  I am looking forward to some more wood heat...hmmmm.  And naturally, on a day we have to go to town it is going to be really stinkin cold.  yuck!  we have a wind advisory for this afternoon through tomorrow.  fun fun.

So Steph and EO met with someone at the college... Steph's schooling would cost over $40,000.  That is nuts.  Colton is studying to become an RN and it isn't that much.  Even with grants, she would have to pay about $4000 a year out of pocket, not counting gas money she will need.  And she just can't afford that.  She is just crushed!  I keep praying for wisdom to know how to help her.  I don't know the answer on how to help her yet.  But I will keep praying about it.   

The past few days i have asked EO how his mom is doing, and he says, "ok, her pain in under control" but he says nothing else.  I know he doesn't want to talk about it.  But, last night i made him sit down and talk about it.  He says her one eye is sinking in from dehydration because she doesn't have an IV and she just can't drink enough.  She is barely eating, well not enough to keep her from deteriorating.  She keeps loosing weight and yet her legs are still swollen so badly from the fluids.  He said at least at the hospital they could give her protein and what not through the IV, but her strength at the nursing home is dependent on what she can eat.  Being she can't eat much, she can't get any stronger. He has learned just why everyone hates cancer.  He said it is such in insidious and merciless disease. He is at the depression part of his grief with just a touch of anger.  But he has just a breath of acceptance.  

We know we aren't the strongest spiritually, and we have been working on it for awhile to get things right, and we know it will take more time.  But the family is happy that we are back on the right track.  everyone is giggly during family worship and for awhile now, the whole atmosphere in the house has been lifting, despite the heartbreak in the family.  Family worship has been feeling so natural and not forced like it did the first couple weeks.  We know things are only going to get harder and we will never be able to manage getting through it without Jehovah's direction.  So we will just keep trying.  

Lauren was having a hard day the other day.  I told her, "it is easy to be hard on ourselves and give up when we make mistakes.  But each day is a gift from Jehovah, because he is allowing us to try and do better that day.  Leave yesterday behind you and just work on today."  That is what we are all trying to do.