Steph took this of carrot.  I just love this pic!

Yesterday there just seemed to be so much going on.  I get so overwhelmed all the time.  I just can't handle going in so many directions at once.  To have everyone needing something from me, and having to take care of so much... it just really drains my strength.  Nothing was bad or actually stressful, I just can't seem to focus on more than one or two thing without getting flustered or worse having a meltdown.  Thankfully when I mumbled it was too much for me, EO & Lauren took over so I could stop going in circles.  I hate that my brain can't function properly. 

I was so swollen all day yesterday and I had so much pain, I had to take extra pain meds.  The four of us went over to B&C. I knew there was no way I could stay long.  Steph gave me a ride back home right after dinner.  I was so cold and wanted to just lay down, so when we got home I climbed into bed and watched the rest of the game.  

Steph sold her car the other day.  They will come back next week and pick it up.  She has had a number of calls about Carrot/Charming Lady.  There is a lady who will be coming Wednesday to see her.  She texted us last night.  Actually, last night a woman called, but she was looking for a specific blood line, which she isn't the one she was looking for.  But she said she would let her friends know about her and see if they would be interested.  I actually love Carrot's personality.  I am really going to miss her.  She is fun and so affectionate.  She loves being hugged and talked to.  She is so easy to ride, even though she doesn't have a lot of miles on her.  She reminds me so much of my horse Major.  Well, her personality i mean.  Major was not fun to ride... we he was, but his trot was so uncomfortable, and Carrot's trot is far more enjoyable. But he had such a wonderful personality, he just was so fun to be around, like Carrot. She just loves attention. 
I am going to miss her.

I did my Bible reading and letter writing.  I used my last address today.  I am out of some tracts and super low on others, so this week we will have to pic up more of everything.  

I want so much to do some cleaning today.  I am going to see if I can empty the shelves in our bedroom and get rid of everything over there in the corner.  I am just tired of the mess.  Plus we have so much cleaning we need to do before the end of the month.  It is high time we start unloading the stuff we will never use.  If we move or we stay, it doesn't matter, because we have too much trash just laying around here.  TOO MUCH TRASH!  Maybe I can get EO to help.  If he does, then maybe he will help me attack the closet too.  I think the remodel of the closet will be on hold until we find out if we are moving.  Cause there is no point in remodeling it if we are just going to sell the house next month.  But when we do find out if we are selling or staying, it will be nice to have the closet cleaned out, so we can revamp it.  I should get at it.

I posted the Kingdom Melodies song/video today.  I have never been able to sing that song.  By the second verse, I am welling up and by the chorus I have broken down bawling my eyes out.  Many of the new songs do that to me, but this one is the worst.  I think it is the most beautiful tribute to Jehovah and his son.  They recently mentioned at the assembly how a song was needed for the new system and this is what they wrote... I have thought that since the first time I heard it, that we will be singing this in the paradise.  I know everything we do is to the glory of our heavenly Father, but this song, just tops it for me.  I hope someday I can sing it, I have tried to detach my emotions from the song, but I just can't.  Yet.