As the day went on yesterday, I still felt tense, although maybe it was anxious.  But the I worked the cranky out.  I also took some extra vitamin B12, and I think that helped the most.  

My fingers hurt so bad today.  Actually they have been hurting a lot the last few days.  I only write one letter a day, as it is so hard on my tendon issues and carpal tunnel problems... and my nerve problem in my hands.  Today's one letter was very painful to write.  I stopped a number of times just to get control of the pain.  At least it isn't that bad every day.  Normally I only have to stop a couple times for a minute or less, today it was several minutes at a time.  Oh well, everyone has good days and bad.

I did sleep better last night.  Today I'm not coughing as much, but I still don't have a voice.  EO asked me why it is I always loose my voice....  did he really think I knew the answer to that?  LOL  He is just the best!  I clearly have some sort of flaw that no matter what happens to me (i.e. stubbing my toe on a chair, hitting my funny bone) I will loose my voice.  OK, so maybe not those things, but I do loose it easily as all I have to do is cough a couple times and my voice is gone and then it takes a long time to return.  Perhaps my vocal cords are frail, or deformed in some way, so that it takes very little stress to make them not work.  Who knows.  But I have always had this problem.  Well... when I was a kid, I had the problem but my voice would only be gone a couple days, not many days like it is now.  Dare I say it?  Old age is contributing to the severity of it?

EO said last night we have all of our tax stuff now.... Last time he did most of the work, I think this time I might have him do that again.  Maybe it is too soon for my brain to handle it due to this influenza?  Maybe in another day or so I will feel good enough to tackle the job.  Maybe?  Maybe Colton could help him?  We also have to teach Lauren & Steph how to do it as well, until now we have done it for them.  Well, at least i hope I will feel better soon.  I'm sure I will have a day where I can sit here and diddle with it.

No big plans again today.  My hip is hurting a lot, so I think I will lay in bed and do some reading.

Thanks Stacy for the sweet card.   It is interesting to see how other people view you.  When EO read what you wrote about him, he was shocked.  He said he had no idea that anyone even notice him or gave him a second thought as to the kind of person he is.  He was deeply touched.  So was I.  Areas that I feel are my weak points and that I just work so hard on,.. well, it amazes me when others comment on it.  I see the negative in me and I am aware of the constant battle within me.  So when someone acknowledges my efforts it is soothing to hear that I've made even a little progress.  Thank you for your kindness in taking the time to write those thoughts.  They were very touching and deeply appreciated.