This is what a want in our paradise home, a giant sofa.  Actually this is very close to the living room I want, the only thing missing is the balcony that would be up on the left side of this pic.

So yesterday was horrible, wow, at one point when the meeting first started i cried and wanted in the worst way for EO to come home and be with me.  but i kept thinking he needs to be at the hall, he needs his spiritual refreshment, but I want him to hold me, but he needs to be able to worship, but but but but... then I just asked Jehovah for strength to endure and help me focus on the meeting as much as i could and I then relaxed.  

I woke up this morning and there was no way I could work out.  I had to take extra pain meds and they haven't really helped.  They really only have taken the edge off slightly.  I guess it is going to be one of those days...again.

We did manage to get our room reserved last night, and colton made his reservation too, he is staying at the Kahler and we are at America's Best.  I also found out some of my family will be coming down to our DC and staying at the hotel we are at, so I am THRILLED!!!!!  Plus we got a suite again, so we will all be able to hang out easily.  It is a wonderful distraction for me today to keep my mind off of my pain.

Oh, things went well with the nurse yesterday, I should be able to get more time and more help as I need help more and more.  I should hear next week about it.  EO & Lauren then went over with the nurse to moms.  Mom went into denial and at one point said she didn't need help with anything.  then after 45 mins she agreed she did need more help.  The nurse had to be there 2 hours because mom was being so difficult about it, but they were able to come up with a plan that will give her more help as she needs it.  We are all just worried about when the spinal disease gets to her neck what will happen with her, will she even be able to breath as the fusing process is going on?  We just know it is going to continue to be horribly difficult.  It is already half way up her back.  So once her entire spine fuses together will she still be able to live by herself?   Perhaps this is the stress that is making me sicker right now.  I wouldn't be surprised. 

I couldn't do my workout today, but I still did my studying.  It sure is a peaceful break from the stress we are dealing with.