Otilie Swanson

I found this pic of Tillie yesterday and it just broke my heart.  I can't believe how many years have gone by since she has been gone.  Just a couple years less than my dad.  Both lost to cancer.  What a dreadful disease that shows no mercy or preference in who it inhabits.  Some illnesses are self inflicted from drug abuse, alcoholism, tobacco use, immorality. But cancer destroys all.


Today is the anniversary of loosing my dad.  I miss him so much.  I wish so many years haven't already passed.  But all those years gave millions a chance to come to know our Heavenly Father.  And I will soon have forever to be with him again, so I know what I have and do suffer now, is nothing to what has occurred and what is yet to come.  I can't focus on this today, I need to go climb in bed.

I was pretty sick yesterday, and today I'm overwhelmed with the urge to cry, sob uncontrollably.  But not because I'm sad, there is nothing really spurring this on, which means I'm about to run a very high fever.  It is so strange to me that my body cries before a high fever.  It must be extremely taxing for my system.

Everyone is home from service and they will be leaving soon to work at the hall to do the spring cleaning.  Although Lauren had to run to tend to grandma for a bit.   I'm going to bed now.