never got any better yesterday, but I didn't get worse either, so that is a plus!

now this week, EO took Bill up town, Lauren had an apt too, so she went with.  She made it through the second interview and now tomorrow she has a third.. I guess tomorrow they give her a job offer.

tomorrow, Lauren and I both have doc apts before her 3rd interview.  i will be seeing my GI doc, wonder if he can help me.  i'm not holding my breath though.

I just saw my first Panera Bread commercial.  the food looked sooooo good!!!!  can't wait until it opens, there are so many things I want to try!!!   Ok, so the manager goofed, Steph doesn't start work tomorrow, she starts Thursday. 

then not sure if anything is going on Wednesday, but Thursday I have physical therapy for my hip. i am going to be shot for a few days after that. and most likely not able to walk, as I am sure my hips will swell and lock up.  

Colton is gone for a week house sitting.  

so we haven't talked anymore about where we are going to go for our anniversary.  with all the stress we are dealing with, all the demands and just life... i would really just love to go to a Regional Convention...that would be an awesome anniversary.  just go and get some spiritual encouragement.  i wonder if EO would be up to that.  maybe i will go look up conventions, is if there are anything coming up that we could get to.  although, the society wants us to go to the one we are assigned to.. which we would, but we need more than just a getaway we need encouragement and comfort.  i'm going to look anyways. ...........i looked, there are no conventions in May...

i guess i am just feeling so blue today.  it's been building up.  there is so much i don't say, even on here.  i am just...