something has been on my mind a lot lately... it's just bugging me.

How can a person say to your face they love you & love being with you, but won't accept any invites to come over.  And, recently I was able to make it to the hall for the meeting, but.. the past few times I've been there, they never once came over to see me, when I went to them, they just turned away.  then I got right up to them, and they just gave me a dirty look and kept going.  i tried to get them to talk, but it was like pulling teeth.  to top it off, another member of their family came up to me and gave me a hug. 

all i can figure is i did something that hurt them.  whatever i did, i'm sorry.

i guess it doesn't matter.  i've never been close to anyone in this hall.... well, every time i have tried, they move away never to be heard of again.

ok, so 4 days in a row, feeling horrendous, and it is taking a toll.  i'm clearly at a low point.