I made a huge mistake!

Some where along the line I saw this thing, to put fresh pineapple on the grill.  Being I LOVE fresh pineapple, and I don't mind it cooked on pizza, I figured I would like it.  It wasn't that I didn't like it, but I got sick instantly.  I had one little piece and I was not handling it well at all.  Soon, I was suffering as if I had lighter fluid in my mouth.  Really quick a full blown migraine had started.  I took a pile of meds, including allergy meds, I scrubbed my mouth but I couldn't get rid of the waxy chemical taste.

I had had some of the pineapple before it went on the grill and it was fabulous, but never again will i have anything cooked on the grill.  which could only be veggies as I just can't eat much of anything.

I woke up with a killer headache. it was so bad... scary bad. 

On another note, yesterday. when I was looking for a grey suit for eo at JCP.com, one to replace the suit that got damaged by a dog, I think I found the same suit, it was on clearance and in his size. His top coat was damaged, but the pants are fine, if it is a match, then he will have 2 pairs of pants to use with the top coat.  so i was pretty pleased about that.  I ordered him a few other items, so that he will have some decent pants to wear not just down to the DC but up town or different "occasion" places.

I sure hope i can feel better, food just doesn't taste good right now.

I upset. Perhaps it is aggravated by my being sick, but....
I have been thinking about our 25th wedding anniversary, granted it is 2 1/2 years away, but I was thinking about wanting to go somewhere I've always wanted to go, ... Mackinac Island.  I would really like to go to either the Lilac festival or the horse festival...
anyway, every other week, there is something else I can't eat.  Yesterday Johnson's had a fish fry, and there wasn't a single thing I could eat. Most everything was fried or pasta.  There are few places I can eat.  It is just getting harder and harder to find food.
'If the new system isn't here, in 2 1/2 years, what am I going to eat?  as it is, I am guessing in a year i might not be able to eat anything. 
I have been thinking about what we would do on our 25th anniversary, for 5 or 6 years. 
i know it is selfish, and I shouldn't be worrying about it, but it just hit me like a ton of bricks today.  What is the point of doing anything, when I won't be able to eat.  Mackinac island is known for their fudge and foods and festivals.  I will be on a feeding tube by then, how can I go anywhere?  Not to mention, all my other ailments.  I dreamed about walking the island with eo, riding in horse carriages with him. 

wow, i am sure feeling sorry for myself, I haven't really had time to think about it or reason on it.  I just haven't come to terms with it yet so that I can get my emotions under check. 

I just know there are far more important things to worry about like getting my family into the new system