EO really helped me yesterday to deal with some the stress I was dealing with. Mostly I just needed to work them out in my own head one at a time, and then I was able to move past them.  But I was just hit with too many all at once, so I was struggling to sort through them.  Now I am ready to deal with whatever else comes my way.  I think another reason I was having trouble is because I haven't slept good the past couple weeks.  I wake up like...every two hours.  I hoped that once I finished some of the meds I was given that I would be able to sleep again, but that isn't it.  Because I am done now, and I still am not sleeping well.  So if it isn't those new meds, maybe it has to do with the med increase that I have.  AUGH... I'm always looking for answers.

I woke up at 8, was just way to tired to get up, fell asleep and didn't wake up until 11...grrrr.  All night I was up every two hours, until this morning...really?  So annoying... actually, I don't know why it is annoying, because, now that i think of it, i'm not really annoyed.  at first i was, but i guess there is nothing i could do about it, so humm, i got up at 11 this morning.  

the other morning, my mom calls me, and tells me how the doc sent a machine home with her because they wanted to record her sleeping because she stops breathing during the night and wakes up unable to breath, then she coughs and chokes and gasps... it's not pretty.  
ok, so she called me and said, when she woke up she was thrashing around, she had this machine thing taped to arm and it was ripped off, her bedding was strewn all over (she seldom moves an inch when she sleeps, crazy but true) pillows were toss around, and that was before she was aware that she was choking and not able to breath.  then she started coughing so much until she vomited.  
So, the nurse calls me, and says they looked over the results and said, she did beautifully, and that she no longer needs to be on oxygen.
I said... I think there is a problem here, because, this is what really happened the night of the test... (and I explained the whole thing).  then I said, so I am guessing, your readings, didn't show that?
I swear, I think I heard her jaw hit the floor, because it took her a couple seconds to respond.

She then said, "can I call you back, I need to go talk to the doctor about this".  and I said, sure.  About an hour later, she calls me back and says.  Not only does she still need to be on oxygen, but the doctor wants her to start using a "condenser"  machine when she sleeps.  then she told me that if she has trouble with dryness to let them know and they can add a bubblier/humidifier... I told her, she already does, she has nose bleeds several times a day.   She said... ok,  well, then I will just send the bubblier now.  The nurse then asked me, if I knew why my mom said that she didn't want to be on oxygen anymore.  I then explained, due to my mom's health problems, she often says things backwards.  in her own head, she thinks she is saying it right, but it just comes out backwards.  Most of the time we have someone go with her to her apts so that we can catch her if she does that, but, sometimes we just don't have anyone who can go with her.  the nurse then understood and she said she would make the change in her records that she does this so they can be aware of it when she comes in.

So I called and told my mom about the whole thing, and she was so thankful that I was able to get that all taken care of.  I am just glad my mom told me about what happened that night she was taking that test so that I could let them know about it.

I am so queezy right now.  Lots of pain today...again or still.