So after EO & I talked it out yesterday (about what I posted in the "UPDATE" part of my post yesterday) I feel better.  I have more confidence and in fact, I am going to aux this month.  I think June would be to hard for me with the convention and what not, or maybe June will come and I will be able to manage it.  Who knows.  But for now, I am going one step at a time. So I am aux this month.  After EO & I made the decision that I could do this, it was as if Jehovah's spirit lifted our load from us. Not completely, but enough so I'm not having panic attacks anymore.  EO's mood has perked up a little bit.  He is still super anxious.  This morning as we talked, he paced back and forth about a hundred or more times.  He is so terribly restless.  If it wasn't raining I know he would be outside doing stuff that needs to get done.  Right now, he ran to the store to get a few things, so that is allowing me to come on here.

He did help me this morning get the paper work done for April.  EO & Colton did sssoooo much work at the apartments in April.  Normally he doesn't help me, but because he also had inspections, I needed his help to get it all submitted. I'm glad that is done now.  

Morning worship seemed to fly by this morning.  OK< the only thing about doing out Bible reading while we eat breakfast, is SO many times, the reading is so gruesome... i'm trying to eat eggs, and the verses are about taking the heads off, putting them in baskets and then putting them in a heap.  YUCK... i am oh so thankful we are not living the way they had to live back then.  That is just a drop in the bucket as to some of the nasty stuff that we have had to eat breakfast through.  Oh well, we still love the routine, entrails and all.

Today I am dealing with a really sharp pain in my neck and in my back.  I don't know what I did, but it is really ... cramping my style...a pain in the neck.... yeah, punning this is lame, so I will just say it is inhibiting my day.  I have too much to do.  I was hoping to work in the spare room today.  EO was able to weld the plate that broke on the chair.  What a wonderful man I am married to.  He takes such great care of me.  

We were also talking about going away from a night.  We won't be able to go for a longer trip like we wanted and we won't be able to go real far.  We just don't want to risk being gone in case his parents need him/us, but mostly/him.  So we are only going as far as Duluth...I think.  So we can be close by.  But we will just go stay at a place we always wanted to stay, but never did, because, well... we kind of thought it was silly to go someplace that is so close to home.  But we have always wanted to stay in a place with a lake view.  

We had stayed at the St. Croix in a few times, that lake view was so beautiful.  Now that is silly, cause we were home, but, it was when the kids were really little, and we wanted to get out of the house, but couldn't go real far.  we had my mom staying with the kids or some other baby sitter.  

So that is our plan.  EO is happy with it, so I am really happy with it.  Maybe next year we will make a big deal of it, as we just can't handle it this year with all we are having to do this year.  We are just afraid, if we leave and go somewhere, that is when things will go horribly bad and when we do go, we don't want to have to worry about what is happening at home.