I love love love love love love this pic!!!!!!!!!!!!  and I would love love love love love love love love love love love love to be here now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Michael gave such a beautiful talk today on the family.  I remember snuggling him as a baby, he was so sweet, and now he is all grown up with his own family.  :)  ok, so back to the talk... I broke down on hearing his illustration of the value of wife.  I feel like I lost my value so long ago.  Like the other day, I was hungry and didn't want to wake anyone up to help me... i tried to make a piece of toast, but it started burning up, I couldn't get the toaster to pop the toast up, and it just kept smoking.  I then unplugged the toaster, but it was still smoking and the smoke alarms went off and i woke everyone up anyways.  i feel so incapable... i spent my life striving to be a "capable wife", now what am i?

the WT lesson urged us to examine our hearts, as Jehovah already has been.  I frequently do this, and i know I have so many short comings.  I want to know I'm worth something, I feel jealous at times, i get hurt by what others say, i get frustrated with people who never say anything nice, i get frustrated with myself and the list goes on and on.  I have known this for so long and I've improved but it is still there.  but i pray about it and try to do better, i try to not think about all i can't do and focus on what i can do.  but these traits are still here.  

My muscles are so knotted up and I'm not sure why.  I need to go lay down.