Carol made it back to the Villa Marina yesterday.  They seemed to have everything in order, checking and rechecking to make sure all the orders were correct so nothing would be missed and then Leon & Lauren brought her over to the Villa and got her checked in and settled in.  They gave her more pain meds than usual so that she could manage the car ride back over there.  I know with my dad, car rides were sheer agony.  So she was sleeping right away.  

Ever since my mom moved to Solon after her heart attack and strokes, every time the phone rings it crosses my mind, "is this it?"  It is terrible to have this fear, if this is the call that tells me she has passed.  She has been living in Solon for a lot of years, so to be living with this fear is so hard. And now Leon has it.  He cringes every time the phone rings. 

It will be so wonderful in the new system to not be living with that fear.  The fear of hearing the phone ring, the fear of hearing those words..."we lost....".  If you can't control that fear it will drive you mad.  It took a long time for me to not have my heart stop when the phone rings. This system royally stinks!!!!!  

I think Leon is going to try and get some rest today...if he can.  I am too tired to do much.  Yesterday was a tough day.  Lots of pain and a fever.  My digestive track was totally messed up and today my lymph nodes are super swollen which is not fun.