What an awesome convention.  It really touches the "heart".  yeah, I had to put that in there.  But then it really does.  I already don't remember a lot of it.  I don't remember Saturday, as boy I was sick that day.  But such great information, and I'm really looking forward to apply the info.

Today I needed the apply it.  I had a break down... well, a mini one.  So EO & Lauren brought a load of luggage down to the car and I came with a load just a few minutes later.  I got down there, and they were gone.  No car, no EO, no Lauren.  I waited a couple minutes realized I left my phone in the room, and went back up.   I seriously thought they left me.  Lauren needed to go to Walmart and EO said he was going to check out the county fair across the street.  And I thought they left me there.  I went back up to the room and they were sitting there in the hall way, kind of annoyed, because I didn't have my phone when they tried to call me saying they both forgot their keys to get back in the room.  I have some serious abandonment issues.  I just figure no one wants me and that everyone is just going to leave at some point.  I had to apologize to them for not giving them enough credit, and not thinking of just how loyal and loving they really are.  My own abandonment issues are making a mess of things.  If I can't get them under control, I will end up pushing them away.  I guess being at the convention, and I just never felt so alone as I did this year.  I'm sure it has mostly to do with my illness.  But I just feel alone so much of the time.  Depression is such an adventure.  I just learned I have to give them more credit.  

So it was a rough morning.  It seems we all had a tough day at some point.  Perhaps we were all coming off our spiritual buzz.  

We did really enjoy seeing the horses at the county fair.  The baby animal barn wasn't opened yet, so we didn't get to see any of those.  That is what we really wanted to see.  But we enjoyed the horses and cows.  They were all getting hosed down and cleaned up. We really miss having horses.  I can hardly wait until we have them again.  Maybe I will work on designing a horse barn for our new system place.  Although, i'm guessing EO would rather be the one to do that.  I might anyways.