Yesterday was another long day for the family.  EO came home last night rather unsteady...mentally/emotionally.  the day had been too stressful.  Between the crazy lady (who at some point got up and dressed and said "i'm outta here!"  and she just left) and the deterioration of his mom, he needed to have some quiet.  He went out for a walk and organized his hunting supplies and it was only a couple of hours, I am sure he needs another day off, but that won't be today as he is taking his dad back up to Duluth.

Oh, FYI... the nursing staff said they won't be putting anyone else in the room with Carol again.  

So I spent pretty much the whole day yesterday on the phone... as it was another crazy Monday.  I did forget one phone call in all the phone calls we had for the day.  so EO will have to make that later.  But I handled all the apt stuff for EO so he didn't have to deal with any of that.  And Lauren handled the physical stuff at the apts for EO too.  She is still limping as her toe and knee are still a mess.  Actually it is going to take a long time for her toe to recover.  She can't handle any pressure on it, so she is stuck having to wear her crocs as they are the only thing she can get her foot in that doesn't cause pressure.  She could wear sandals but I told her it would be better not to as she could to easily bump or get dirt on her toe, at least not until it heal up better.

The plastic surgeon said he couldn't do anything more than what is already done.  And that she is still 3 weeks to a month out before she could start Chemo.  She is just healing slowly.  it seems like the past couple days have been a lot of backwards steps. Having those 2 infections... freaks me out, that she could get more, she has an awful lot of holes in her from all the draining and what not.  I just hope they are giving her the right antibiotics and that it will help her.  That has everyone shook up.  Even though we know the reality of the situation, we are trying to be hopeful that she can get better.  It sure is easy to get discouraged though.  But we all need to focus on our positive thoughts.  

I was going to go with today up there, but i forgot to take my heart pill last night.  I was so sure I took it but this morning I looked in my dish and there it was.  it makes me dizzy...which is why I take it at night, so I can just sleep through it.  So I won't be up to helping him out today.  There are a couple of dishes, so I will do those for him and just basically hold down the fort.  We will just keep trying to help him any way we can.  I worry about EO so much, we all are.  Last night he was pretty shaky, but this morning he seems more stable.  We just keep praying for the strength to endure and we are so thankful for Jehovah's love.

As for me...how can I complain?  Yes i am in a lot of pain and still struggling with the same things.  But I just can't take the time to think about it.  I am just trying to focus my attention on Carol, Bill, EO and the rest of the family.  Mentally and emotionally, I seem to be doing ok, but I am more concerned that if I let myself fall apart it is only going to be harder on EO and he has enough on his shoulders right now, so whatever I can do to take some of the weight off of him, that is what I am going to do.  I am also not letting EO know about my rough days, not that he can't tell,.... but really, his head is swimming so much, he isn't noticing it completely.  I think he is aware, but if I don't say anything, then he knows he doesn't need to worry about it.  

He needed to work today, to take my mom and Ethel up for doc apts, but I talked to my mom, and we were able to find another worker of hers that could take them.  EO is not one to say "I will do this" and then not do it.  That actually drives him crazy when people don't "make their yes mean yes and there no mean no".  He kept saying he would have Deenie take Bill up so he could go to work, but I insisted that Deenie needed more than one day to recoup.  And when we were able to find another driver for mom and Ethel, I told him to just tend to his dad.  (not that i should be telling him what to do) as, if he disagreed with me, he would do what he thinks he should do.  But in this case, everything feel into place, so he was fine with it. I just hope he will be able to get some more down time, because he is really having a tough time focusing.  For him, one thing at a time for now.