2 of us
Posted by Robyn Nelson on Sunday, March 16, 2014
I don't remember us ever have canceling the meeting because of the septic at the hall being froze up. This is a strange weather winter for Solon... ok, MN & WI, and maybe a lot of other states. Lauren went to work at Grandma's this morning, then from there she is heading straight up to Walmart. She is getting more comfortable with the job. Although she is not used to being on her feet for 8+ hours a day. Once her training is over, the days will settle down for her.
Steph has the day off, and I would be shocked if I saw her out here before 1 or 2pm. She is one worn out gal. She has tomorrow off too. She is getting more used to the job and enjoys it real well. She has told me about the walk in fridge, walk in freezer and walk in oven. I would be freaked out of getting locked in one. ok, so you can't actually get locked into them, but still. the thought can't help but cross your mind.
And Colton had to work last night.. and still house sitting. So maybe we will see him later. Although he was here for awhile last night, before work.
I am so excited to be able to empty our bedroom. All these years I have always tried to keep it neat and uncluttered. But the past couple years, when my health really has bogged me down, I haven't been able to keep up with it. We have way way way too much stuff in our room. The crazy thing is, i am too sick to notice most days.
yesterday was rough, not just sick but, emotional. one of my personal traditions is, a week or better before a new season of DWTS comes on, I watch all or most of the seasons before. I gets me excited to see who the new celebs are and to just see what they can do. I don't have all the seasons. Even though I started watching the show from the second episode (miss the first, we were gone that night), I only started saving them from season 4. There is one season I chose not to record, because of some of the people on there, it just made me uncomfortable. Anyways, tomorrow is the start of season 18 and I can hardly wait. I know the show isn't for everyone, and some of the outfits are... whoa. but, again, the music and the energy they have... just makes me think of someday I will have energy and strength again. Most people, even if they do have some limitations, may not appreciate what I see, but that is only because they really don't know what poor health is like. they don't know what it is like to be home-bound. not even to have the energy to step outside. I just see the reminder one day I will have more energy than those who are dancing.
but what made it emotional for me yesterday was, I was watching the "all star" season...(awesome season, the best of the best having to be better than before... there wasn't a week without multiple awesome dances...my favorite season) there was a dance that Apolo Ohno did with Karina, to a song about a woman having cancer. Karina had Apolo portray how desperately the husband wanted to be the who had cancer and spare his wife from the pain and fear she was suffering. It is so beautifully portrayed and danced. I had forgotten about that dance but when they showed their rehearsal... my heart just sunk. On top of it, they showed that dance 3 times. Once for the live show, once as an encore and once more in the finale. So three times, my heart just gave way.
These past 7 months... have really aged us all. Seeing how I get so much sicker when stressed, it is no wonder I am in the condition I am in. Jehovah just keeps giving us the power to get through each day. What really touches me, is the visits from the friends... ok, I mean those who go to visit Carol. Some days are quiet with just a few visits, and other days, it is standing room only (seriously,) I've been there some days when people were standing in the hallway because there was no more room inside the room. She is deeply loved by so many, and it just comforts my heart to see the support. As for Leon, I still do my best to help and comfort him. But mostly I just pray for him, as his load is so great. One thing about mom moving, it helps, because now his parents need him so much. I think Jehovah said it was time to adjust the load on him. My mom has actually been pretty great, she tries really hard these past months, to give him as much space as she can. But still, it is so hard. As for me, I hide a lot from him. Sometimes something will come out, and he is wondering what is going on. I tell him, that I am sparing details from him that he can't do anything about anyways and that he doesn't need to worry about. If it is important enough, or serious, I tell him, but for the little stuff, it doesn't make sense to make him deal with it when it is unimportant. it might sound like our line of communication is poor or that I am hiding something dishonest. It isn't that at all. we have never ever had trouble talking. And right now, the adjustment that I am making is allowing him to do most of the talking. I am letting him unload what he needs to unload and I am really trying to be "swift about hearing and slow about speaking". the days he needs to talk the most are the days after he spends with his dad. When he spends time with his mom, he is really quiet those days, and I do my best to not cause stress for him on those days. the day after he has seen her, he normally talks more. He just needs a night to mull over what he is going through. When having to deal with a situation like this, sacrifices need to be made. I feel bad that I can't physically do more around the house to help him. But once the house thins down and it is just the two or maybe three of us, it will be much easier on him. I think too that with less to do, I might be able to handle helping him somewhat.
The kids have been great about helping us out, but now they are so busy, they are gone so much.. .you would think it would be cleaner, but that is when things always seem to get messier because they are worn out and all then have time for is a quick meal, shower and sleep. but floors get dirty, bathrooms get dirty and so on, so there tends to be more work, because no one has time to work. I don't ask anything of the kids unless it is their day off. Then on those days, i let them sleep in and afterwards put them to work.
wow, i am chatty today. well, time to go hang out with the hubby.
Steph has the day off, and I would be shocked if I saw her out here before 1 or 2pm. She is one worn out gal. She has tomorrow off too. She is getting more used to the job and enjoys it real well. She has told me about the walk in fridge, walk in freezer and walk in oven. I would be freaked out of getting locked in one. ok, so you can't actually get locked into them, but still. the thought can't help but cross your mind.
And Colton had to work last night.. and still house sitting. So maybe we will see him later. Although he was here for awhile last night, before work.
I am so excited to be able to empty our bedroom. All these years I have always tried to keep it neat and uncluttered. But the past couple years, when my health really has bogged me down, I haven't been able to keep up with it. We have way way way too much stuff in our room. The crazy thing is, i am too sick to notice most days.
yesterday was rough, not just sick but, emotional. one of my personal traditions is, a week or better before a new season of DWTS comes on, I watch all or most of the seasons before. I gets me excited to see who the new celebs are and to just see what they can do. I don't have all the seasons. Even though I started watching the show from the second episode (miss the first, we were gone that night), I only started saving them from season 4. There is one season I chose not to record, because of some of the people on there, it just made me uncomfortable. Anyways, tomorrow is the start of season 18 and I can hardly wait. I know the show isn't for everyone, and some of the outfits are... whoa. but, again, the music and the energy they have... just makes me think of someday I will have energy and strength again. Most people, even if they do have some limitations, may not appreciate what I see, but that is only because they really don't know what poor health is like. they don't know what it is like to be home-bound. not even to have the energy to step outside. I just see the reminder one day I will have more energy than those who are dancing.
but what made it emotional for me yesterday was, I was watching the "all star" season...(awesome season, the best of the best having to be better than before... there wasn't a week without multiple awesome dances...my favorite season) there was a dance that Apolo Ohno did with Karina, to a song about a woman having cancer. Karina had Apolo portray how desperately the husband wanted to be the who had cancer and spare his wife from the pain and fear she was suffering. It is so beautifully portrayed and danced. I had forgotten about that dance but when they showed their rehearsal... my heart just sunk. On top of it, they showed that dance 3 times. Once for the live show, once as an encore and once more in the finale. So three times, my heart just gave way.
These past 7 months... have really aged us all. Seeing how I get so much sicker when stressed, it is no wonder I am in the condition I am in. Jehovah just keeps giving us the power to get through each day. What really touches me, is the visits from the friends... ok, I mean those who go to visit Carol. Some days are quiet with just a few visits, and other days, it is standing room only (seriously,) I've been there some days when people were standing in the hallway because there was no more room inside the room. She is deeply loved by so many, and it just comforts my heart to see the support. As for Leon, I still do my best to help and comfort him. But mostly I just pray for him, as his load is so great. One thing about mom moving, it helps, because now his parents need him so much. I think Jehovah said it was time to adjust the load on him. My mom has actually been pretty great, she tries really hard these past months, to give him as much space as she can. But still, it is so hard. As for me, I hide a lot from him. Sometimes something will come out, and he is wondering what is going on. I tell him, that I am sparing details from him that he can't do anything about anyways and that he doesn't need to worry about. If it is important enough, or serious, I tell him, but for the little stuff, it doesn't make sense to make him deal with it when it is unimportant. it might sound like our line of communication is poor or that I am hiding something dishonest. It isn't that at all. we have never ever had trouble talking. And right now, the adjustment that I am making is allowing him to do most of the talking. I am letting him unload what he needs to unload and I am really trying to be "swift about hearing and slow about speaking". the days he needs to talk the most are the days after he spends with his dad. When he spends time with his mom, he is really quiet those days, and I do my best to not cause stress for him on those days. the day after he has seen her, he normally talks more. He just needs a night to mull over what he is going through. When having to deal with a situation like this, sacrifices need to be made. I feel bad that I can't physically do more around the house to help him. But once the house thins down and it is just the two or maybe three of us, it will be much easier on him. I think too that with less to do, I might be able to handle helping him somewhat.
The kids have been great about helping us out, but now they are so busy, they are gone so much.. .you would think it would be cleaner, but that is when things always seem to get messier because they are worn out and all then have time for is a quick meal, shower and sleep. but floors get dirty, bathrooms get dirty and so on, so there tends to be more work, because no one has time to work. I don't ask anything of the kids unless it is their day off. Then on those days, i let them sleep in and afterwards put them to work.
wow, i am chatty today. well, time to go hang out with the hubby.
